What'd I miss? (ThomasxReader)

Oh no

Trigger warning: umm...... lots of depressing shit.... I know it kanda triggered me when I wrote it...
{your pov}
"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" I yell at Alex, his eyes... there so glossy.... that's not good "your drunk and fucking high... good fucking job Alexander.." you turn around "you fucking idiot" I walk to the kitchen. Burr follows... I can't stand this...
{Alex pov}
She's so upset... I walk upstairs into my room... I was about to sits on my bed.... a gun shot.... pain... so much fucking pain.... all I can do is hold my side where I got shot.... it hurts... it hurts so much.... I get so see my Son on the other side... my mother is in the other side... everything goes black
{Thomas Jefferson pov}
Got that little fucker, he's out of my way... time to get rid of burr.... that's going to be hard... I need a plan for that one
{burr pov}
"(y/n) I'm su-" gun shot. Me and (y/n) run upstairs... Alexander Hamilton... is dead... she breaks down into tears... no words... there nothing
{Your pov}
He's dead. Blood. Blood everywhere. Why Alexander? Why him!? Why couldn't it be me!?!? Why!?!? I start sobbing.... I can't handle this... I get up and walk into the bathroom... locking myself in it. I grabbed my blades..... no one knows about them.... there the biggest, and only secret I have.... I strip down to my bra and underwear.... I start cutting, everywhere.... long deep cuts.... everywhere.... I start the water..... suicide.... suicide is always the answer.... I needed it now... I climb into the cold water... it's quickly turning red... it stings... I like it..... I need this... I want this.... everything starts turning black.... the end is finely here..
HUHUHU CLIFFHANGER-IM SO SORRY FOR NOT WRITING, IM ACTUALLY QUITE DEPRESSED MYSELF SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEAH. BUT HERES THE CHAPTER, HOPE IT WASN'T SHIT