I reached home and went straight to my room...I had that mutes dairy with me.
I sat on my bed and opened the first page to see ...
Selena Marie Gomez July 22 Born - muted ......
That's what she wrote in the first page and then I flipped the pages to see a family photo ..
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I don't know why ... but my heart soften at the sight of the baby....I am sure its selena ...
Her parents look young .....
I shrugged it off and went to some pages ... I didn't bother to read ...but I stopped when I read the word die..
" why mom ... why didn't you let me die..." what ? I thought to read from the starting ..
" it's all my fault.....at my age of 5 , my mom had to die "
what !! die !!??... her mom died when she was only five?..o my gosh... thats the reason why she always break whenever i tease about her mom..... i feel horrible ...
I looked down to continue ..
"while she picked me up from the kindergarden .. where I get bullied a lot since I don't speak..."
I knew she was talking about me ...
" we were on our way to our house when suddenly a truck came at full speed....I couldn't scream at that moment...my mom screamed and left the steering wheel and I got panic attack...
My mom suddenly hugged me protecting me... but I was the one in critical stage ... my mom was doing fine...I was put into ICU for like a month when doctor said I had heart failure ..
So I had a surgery at the age of 5 ....when I woke up ... I heard the worst news of my life ...
My mom's dead ......
Since that day my dad abused me ... telling me its my fault .
I was thinking till I was 14 that ...it was my fault that my mom had to die...
But I got the real reason .. it was a letter from my mom ..and then I understood everything ....that night was soo hard for me...
The doctor said I have a heart failure .. so I won't be living for more than a month .. if I needed to survive ... I needed heart transplantation.....
And that's why I am living now.....it's not my heart , its my
Mom's "
My mouth dropped open .... I felt some wetness on my cheeks ... I touched it and saw It was tears ...
I closed my eyes to take a deep breath...
Her mom died at her age of five and now we are 18 and I still tease about her mom ...
You must be the biggest burden for your mom's or dad's life......
Ha what are you gonna do .. go to home and cry to your momma...
I wish your dad and mom would die ...so they don't need a daughter like you ... no one will love you ..
These words I said to her replayed in my mind....and her dad is also abusing her at home ...like I do at school..
She always gets beatings ..... I always give her more on Mondays thinking she don't get any on the weekends .. but she is...
And today ... I heard her wimper.... in first time from kindergarden to high school...I herd her voice..
And she looked shocked tooo..her eyes shown happiness at that moment...but came back to frown , when she tried again it didn't work..
I am still thinking ... that's not her heart ... it her mom's ...her mom sacrificed for her daughter....
I got up but something fell from the book....
It looked like a paper..I picked it up and opened the paper to see it was that letter from her mom...
Dear my lovely baby ,
Sweetie I think its time to tell you the real reason ...
You were in a very critical condition ... and I couldn't take it....then the doctor came to me and said the words which made me broke ...
That my baby have a heart failure....and she won't be able to survive for more than a month........ you would only survive with heart transplantation..... so I decided to sacrifice my love for you ...
You have my heart sweetheart.....so there is a half of me inside you ....
I hope you can talk again sweetie.... I remember taking you to therapies ... but the doctor Said there was no use..
But I know ...you can do it ... you will hear your own voice..never give up ..keep trying ...
I will always watch you ...
I am soo sorry for leaving you ...but you need to live..
I will love you always ...
Love mom .. " I was wiping my tears soo much.... I couldn't believe I cried .....
She went through too much ..
There are more ... but I decided to read it tomorrow....
She gets bullied by me and her dad .... she can't say this to anyone....her mom loved her soo much ... and I said that she will be alone forever ... and that's what she is suffering ..
I thing I should slowly stop the bullying without people noticing .... if I stop ...my reputation will be gone.....
Ughh
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Here's an updateee....sorry I didn't update yesterday.... so I will update again ..
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