My Greatest What If - Moira Gokongwei (Published)

Chapter 30

We headed straight home because she was still so upset over what Emil said. She was quiet the whole drive and was quieter when we reached her unit.

I had to force her to eat the quick snack I prepared because she wanted to go straight to bed.

"Hindi nga pwede na walang laman 'yang tiyan mo 'tapos matutulog ka na."

"Masakit nga ulo ko, Baby..." she had replied but I had stubbornly brought the sandwiches to the bedroom and had made her eat.

"Gusto mo pa ba? Gagawa pa ako—"

"Okay na, thank you."

"Gio—"

"Gusto kong matulog."

"Masyado kang apektado. 'Yung iniisip mo at kinakatakutan mong mawala sa'yo dahil at aagawin sa'yo ng ibang tao ay nandito kasama mo. Stop ignoring me."

"Baby, I am not ignoring you. Sorry...I really am just upset and it takes a while before my mood changes. Kaya matutulog na lang muna ako. Kaysa patuloy na uminit ang ulo ko dahil sa lalaking 'yun."

"Maligo ka muna."

"Tinatamad ako..."

"Gio, maligo ka. Kapag ako nainis sa'yo, papaluin na kita, eh."

"I'm not feeling well...baka may sinat ako. I can't take a bath."

"That's all in your head! Naiinis na ako! Tumayo ka na d'yan at maligo ka na!" I had snapped.

She had grudgingly got off the bed to take a shower.

That was nearly twenty minutes ago. I had already taken my bath and was waiting for her to emerge from the bathroom.

"O, bakit nakasimangot ka pa rin?" I asked.

She shrugged.

"Dito ka..." I patted the space beside me.

"Baby, I am not in the mood for a lecture. Pwedeng magpahinga na muna ako?"

"We need to talk. I need to know why you are acting like this. Binangga mo na nga 'yung kotse n'ung tao, 'di ba, hindi pa ba sapat na paghihigante 'yun?"

"Paano magiging sapat, eh, buhay pa s'ya?" she replied.

I sighed before I crawled toward the edge of the bed and then pulled her to sit beside me.

"Sorry, naiinis lang talaga ako. I do not like being disrespected but I realized that I hate it more when someone disrespects you. Ayaw talagang humupa ng init ng ulo ko. Pasensya ka na, Baby, ha. Let me sleep, pagkagising ko ay okay na ako."

"Gio, alam natin, 'di ba, na may mga oras at pagkakataon talagang may makakahalubilo tayong gan'ung klaseng tao? Alam natin itong pinasok natin at handa tayo pareho rito."

"But it does not make it easier. Kaya inis na inis ako."

"Hindi ka naman kay Emil naiinis. Actually hindi ka naiinis."

"Naiinis ako."

"Hindi, G. Natatakot ka. Face it. Let's talk about it and let's face it together."

She closed her eyes and groaned.

"Takot ka ba dahil lalaki si Emil kaya pakiramdam mo ay mas lamang s'ya sa'yo?" I asked softly.

She nodded. "Paano kasi kung..."

"Kung sasama ako sa kanya? Bakit, si Emil ba ang unang lalaking lumapit sa akin, s'ya lang ba ang lalaki sa mundo? Mahigit tatlong bilyon sila pero sa'yo ako sumama, ikaw ang pinili ko."