Can't we go back ?

Chapter 1

How my 2021 year started

So let's start in the beginning , we are in South Africa and I just finished school. I'm starting university to study EGD (electronic graphics designer) and Engineering. In a normal scenario your year always begins with getting your school bag ready, checking if your uniform is out and always making your lunch the night before, well mine went in a completely different direction.

"Pack your stuff, we moving!" Was the first thing my dad told me the week university was supposed to start.

"What ?!? Why?!?" I ask, these were the only two questions I could ask without cussing my father and getting hit that very second.

"We moving because your mother messed up and now we have no money . So we're starting our second life in London. NOW PACK YOUR FUCKING BAGS!!"

Within a spilt second I was out of bed changing.
London ? Why there ?
Why not America ! Or Brazil or maybe even Portugal. I mean we are Portuguese.

As I pack all my clothes in bags, my shoes in another, my console and games in another, and my whole soccer kit in one,that's where I came across my girlfriends choker....
How was I supposed to tell her I was moving,how could she even talk to me.
So I put the choker around my wrist and take my phone out, I type her number out and just look at my phone, the light strikes my eyes as if I was looking directly into the sun, I looked at the time....
Four in the fucking morning !!!
I lay my phone on the side table and place my face in my palms, what the fuck am I gonna do.
After packing my bags I go on the balcony and phone her, thank god it went to voice mail, so that's where the dramatic story started...
"Hey baby... I know you're sleeping and hope you're dreaming amazing things but there is something I need to say... I'm I'm...moving..."

I can't continue with that or you're going to get the wrong impression ..
So after an hour on the phone I end the call with...

"I'm sorry about this but I can't do anything about it, but I promise, I'll come back for you!
I love you baby girl"
"You done yet?" My dad moves my curtains to talk to me...
"Yeah I just finished."
He walks behind me and lights a cigarette and stands next to me,
"I'm sorry about this but we'll be hap..."
"How do you know, how can you prove that!"
"Just trust me... okay ?"
"Fine... where do I pack my bags"
"The trucks coming now, OH and here..." he takes an envelope out his back pocket...
"This was Sheldon's letter to you before he died and he wanted me to give this to you if anything went wrong or something crazy is gonna happen so this is something crazy and I only want you to read this when we on the plane okay ?"
"Don't worry"
I took the envelope and put it in my jacket pocket and I see the truck come down our street, this is it hay ?
This is where it all ends ?

After we packed our stuff I went to my siblings rooms to wake them up, I shake my little sisters arm to wake her up and she looks at me as if I killed someone,
"Emi let's go, wake up we'll talk on the way"
"Fuck okay let me get dressed.."
That's my younger sister Emily, she always hated me but loved me.
Now for the easy part, I pick my little brother up and lay his head on my shoulder and walk down stairs and sit in the passenger, letting myself be the bed for him, I'll always be the brother he wants me to be and I promised I will be...

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4 years ago
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"Riddie, Riddie, please help me with my game?"
"Right now Matt ? "
He tugs on my arm as if I was some kind of man that was going to give him candy
"Fine..!" I Pick him up and throw him over my shoulder as if he was a bag of potatoes,and all he does is laugh away , we get to his bedroom and I explain what to do, and to my surprise he grabs my arm and looks at me and says
"Riddie promise me you'll never change and you must always be a good brother, no cheating me out of anything and you are never allowed to lie to me okay ? Okay good!"
Like usual he never allows me to finish just so he gets his way...
"Oh and Riddie you not allowed to date a girl unless she fits my liking okay ?"
"First of you not my dad so you can't choose who I date, and second I promise Matthew, I'll always be here for you..."
"Riddie "
"Matty?"
" I love you baby brotha!!"
He grabs my arm and hugs it tight.
"I love you too big bro."
I stroke his hair and laugh, he thinks his the big brother but hay I made a promise didn't I ?

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Back to the present
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As he slowly wakes up and he sees me.
"Riddie? Where we ?"
"I'll tell you on the plane."
"Okay I trust you!!"
"I know you do..."
We drive to the airport and my siblings are sleeping, my dad hands me my ticket and he says...
"Listen Ryder, you need to understand you need to look as if you not part of this family."
"Why ?! Am I still an embarrassment to you?"
"Get over that !! And because you in a different section on the plane..."
"What the peasant side ? "
"First class.."
I sit in silence....
"W... Why there ?"
"Listen I know we not on the best of terms but this is a new life we gonna change how we are now so please let's restart."
I look at him and look deep into his eyes and I can tell his telling the truth
"Fine.."
After an hour of driving we get to the airport I hand Mathew to my father and tell my dad to say to him I went further ahead to find my seat,
Five year olds believe anything these days...

And that was the last time I saw them...