(Sam's POV)
The day I left for tour was the worst day of my life, for only one reason. I missed my family. I missed Jay's laughter, Scott's smile, Eric's face. I missed Kathryn's presence. I promised that I would spend the rest of my life with Kathryn no matter what, but here I am on tour half way across the world from her... My lovely wife. The wife I almost died for, The wife I suffered to get, The wife I loved no matter what. I hate myself for breaking my promise to her.. I'm a terrible husband. That's when I started drinking... Smoking... I haven't told anyone but I took drugs too... And I meant serious drugs, I still do. I died my hair got a tattoo in every city our tour has been through. I went through all this pain to distract myself from the pain of not having my family with me . Its working, and I've forgotten about them... I haven't called or seen Kathryn in weeks, the same with my children. Scott, Jay, Eric my children.
This is my new life, this is the new me. This was who I always meant to be! I can leave my old life behind right? I still had my love for my family back then... That's why I got there names tattooed on my wrist. Kurt over reacted when he saw my tattoo, like dude its just a tattoo!
That week Kurt flew back to Toronto for his sons birthday. I didn't wanna come so I stayed put in Iowa, which was where we were at the time. Being alone felt great! I didn't have anyone to worry about! I partied everyday that week! It was a blast!
That week I came home a little to drunk, I got a call from my dad but I declined it. He kept calling me again and again, but I never answered. I turned off my ringer and collapsed in bed.
The next day I woke up hungover. I had a huge head ache. I picked up my phone and saw that I had more calls from my dad. I dialed his number and called him. I got very suspisous, he never calls me this much times in one sitting!
Someone picked up the phone
"Dad! I say into the phone
"Son..." He says
"Dad talk to me" I say
"Its about your mother..." He said
I gulped
"What happened?" I asked with a scared tone
"Yesterday at 11pm, she was taken to the hospital, she suffered from a heart attack and was pronounced dead just an hour later." He said into the phone
What?! My mom is... Gone.
I felt my eyes start to water, I turned into an emotional mess. I told my dad I would call him back, I never did.
My mom was everything to me.. She supported me through everything. To her gone is the worst thing I've ever experienced. I felt alone.
I tried to take my mind off of it.. But there was nothing that could help me... Kurt wasn't here to help me... I felt abandoned. I went out and dyed my hair purple the next day, with some blonde highlights. I saw it on YouTube and thought it would look cool. After I did it I felt like a completely different person! It took my mind off of my mother... If fact it took my mind off of everything. That's when I began smoking, It calmed me down. I would get a tattoo a city so that I could change myself. I got a bunch of piercings so that I would feel different. All of this worked!
Kurt came back a week later and he was shocked at what happened to me. I couldn't take his disapproval to I told him to leave my life. Honestly... I missed him at first but now I'm used to not having him around. I saw him at the hotel restaurant today and I left ad soon as we made eye contact. He later tried to approach me at Rob's pool party. I told him to get lost, after not listening and taking away my cigarettes I pushed him and he fell in the water. Kurt ended up being rushed to the hospital. I felt a slight sense of guilt, but he brought it up on himself! After he was taken away I went back to my room. I ordered a glass of wine and thought about my life and what it had come too. What I did to Kurt.. It felt wrong and right... And at this point I don't actually know what is wrong and what is right. Was I doing this to get my mind of my moms death? Or was I doing this cause I felt like it was what I was suppose to be doing?
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How'd you like that? 😊 I feel like it has a ton of grammar mistakes, but IDC rn about that. I edit after the stories are finished. Thanks for reading! Stay tuned for more! Baiiiii
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