ELITES SERIES: HEARTLESS

chapter ten

*Saturn

"Kuya mag pahinga na ka!" Ven shouted as tears in her eyes started to show up.

"No Ven.. I have to find them.. They need me.. I need them." I said. As if saying it to myself.

I was about to sat down but a fist landed to my face. If only glares could kill, I'm fucking sure both of us are breathing heavily right now!

"Kuya! Yaya help!" Ven shriek.

"Fucking rest! It won't help kung pababayaan mo ang sarili mo." He coldly said.

This fucker is getting into my nerves! He don't know what it feels knowing that my family isn't with me! But i know he's right. I just.. I just couldn't help it! I frustratedly comb my hair and look at him. I want to strangle his face!

"Rest? How could you say that! Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko hahanapin ang mag-ina ko! They've been fucking missing!"

I said like there's a thing chocking my throat. I don't know why Aira have to do this. I thought we were okay, but she was fucking gone with our son! I've been dying looking for them.

Neptune left with cold emotion plastered in his face. Ven hug me as she started to cry. God, please help me to find them.. i cry silently to Him.

Gaano na ba katagal? One week? Two weeks? A month? Three months? Five months? No! Its been fucking eight months since they left! Hindi ko alam kung safe ba sila. Kung komportable ba sila sa kung nasaan sila. If everything is okay! I don't know if they are still alive and it scares the hell out of me!

I miss that every morning, i will watch her doing her morning rituals. I miss the times where I'm hearing her voice and the little giggles of my child. His cries and his screams of joyfulness. I miss their scents. I don't know why I'm doing that. Na gusto ko nakikita ko ang bawat araw na lumipilipas na sila ang naging libangan ko. I'm very much contented pag nakikita ko ang anak ko na naka dikit sa dibdib ni Aira, latching his small mouth to his mommy's full breasts.

Minsan naiinggit ako sa bata, nababaliw na ata ako. Those breasts used to be mine, and I'm fucking surprised na okay lang sakin na nasa anak ko iyon.

I miss everything. I miss where their times are only for me.

Kung sana.. Kung sana hindi ako tarantado! Kung sana pinakita ko na agad kay Aira na gusto ko sila makasama ng anak ko! Sana.. Sana..

"Kuya, you should rest.. Everything will be alright.." Ven

"I need to find them. I need them." I said. I can feel my eyes heating up.

For the eight months. Ngayon ko lang hahayaan lumabas ang emosyon ko.

"I miss them so much, baby.. I don't know what to do anymore.." I said.

My shoulders started to shake. My eyes are cloudy and my tears are trying to escape but as much as I can, i won't shed tears.

I absentmindedly look at the front door. Imagining a fine sophisticated woman walking towards me with a healthy energetic boy carried by her. Then she will sweetly smile at me. Caress my cheeks. Give a peck in my lips as she lovingly look at me. She will ask what's wrong and will offer a massage to ease my tiredness. She will hug me tight as she mouthed how much she misses me and how much she love me. Then i will hug her tight. Tell her how was my day in the office. Then the boy will reach me. Kiss and hug me tight. Calling me 'dada' or 'daddy'.

Naninikip ang dibdib ko. Will it happen or it will only remain in my imagination? No, please God
Let it happen. I promise to work everything to be with them again.

My eyes shut. Same time as the door shut open hardly. A running Curie came to us with his huge smile.

With Kei behind him.

"We found them!" Curie shouted.