ELITES SERIES: HEARTLESS

chapter twelve

*Saturn

Everyday i'm coming to her place. Asking Her forgiveness. She'll just look at me. Smile. Then shrug. I don't know. I have this feeling that stabs me whenever Leo's coming to her place, then my son would approach him. Play. Hug. Laugh with him. That should be me!

Today, i'm in front of their gate. I brought gifts and cake. Hoping that she will accept it. Today is a very special day, if I didn't ask to the twins when is Turner's birthday wouldn't have known it. I'm about to call when the door opened.

"I'm so sorry, best. Tell my inaanak that his Daddy Ninong will make up to him i really need this contract. Sa totoo lang nanghihinayang kami ni Faith, babawi kaming dalawa. I promise." Leo

"Ok lang. Sana successful ang usapan nyo ng client mo. Paki sabi Kay Faith, mag ingat sya sa Italy."

"Hopefully. Happy birthday ulit sa inaanak ko, marshmallows lang ang ipapakain mo ha, pag sinakitan ng tyan yon, yari ka samin." He joke. "And Send me photos of him with my gifts." Leo

Tumango si Aira. Gusto ko suntukin si Leo ng halkan nya sa noo ang asawa ko. But i calmed. Natigilan ito ng makasalubong ang tingin ko. Lumingon sya kay Aira at sakin uli. He mouthed good luck to her as he pass by me. Ako naman pumasok na.

I gave a faint smile.

"Hi."

Ngumiti lang sya. I know she doesn't want me here but, I need them.. nasasaktan ako sa reaksyon nya pero gusto ko makasama sila. Lalo na espesyal ang araw na ito.

"Si Turner? I brought gifts for him." Sabay angat ng dala. She look shock.

"Alam m-mo?"

"Of course. For he is my son."

I was shock when I saw only Turner inside. So tatlo lang kami dito? I need this opportunity. I want to be with them. Ever since things get cleared to me, may kakaibang damdamin na nabuhay sa dibdib ko. Para sa kanya. Na gusto ko nalang mag tagal habang buhay.. Kasama sya. Nang anak at magiging mga anak pa namin. I know what it is and i want her to know about it.

I ate spaghetti with them. I helped Turner opening his gifts from bastard-Leo and his-- Fuck? Girlfriend? And then my gifts. We ate cake together. Play together for the first time. Its an achievement to make him happy. And I feel like the happiest and luckiest man in the world. He understands every word I say, which I immediately found that my son is smart. Napatulog ko sya sa mga braso ko. All those time, Aira never stop me. I thank her for that. But still, i can't manage to tell her how i feel.
Pag lapag ko kay Turner sa kama, naabutan ko sya sa kusina. Nag huhugas. I snake my arms around her waist. She jump. I gave her feather kisses to her neck down to her shoulder.

*Aira

Sinubukan ko pigilan ang damdamin. Pero ng makita ko ang mag-ama ko. Naisip ko, tama ba ito? Na ilayo ko sila sa isa't isa? Mahal ko sila pareho at habang tumatagal mas nahihirapan ako. Lumalayo ako sa sariling kagustuhan, kapalit naman ay ang mag-ama ko? Hindi ko kaya iyon. Pero hiwalay na kami..

Pumikit ako ng mariin. Unang beses na naging malambing si Saturn sakin at ito ang unang beses na masuyo nya akong hinawakan. Nanaas ang balahibo ko sa halik at haplos nya sakin. Mariin akong humawak sa lababo ng di kayanin ang sensasyon. Kinagat ko ang labi ng bumaba ang halik nya sa aking leeg paakyat muli sa aking balikat. Pinigil ko ang Pag ungol pero Pag halik nya saking tenga ay napigtas na ang pagtitimpi. Humarap ako at sinalubong sya ng halik.

It was long and passionate. He wrapped my legs around him as he carry me to my room. Everything's in fire. It ignite the fuel in me when he caress me to the sides up to my breast. It was like a cue when Saturn look me in the eyes and I nod to him. With that, we make love and everything brought me to the ecstasy as he whisper me something that made me cry.

"I love you so much, Aira.."

Bulong lamang iyon, pero ramdam ko ang kiliti mula duon. Kasunod non ay ang pag bagsak ng pawisan nyang katawan sa aking ibabaw at ang malalim nitong pag hinga. Hinaplos ko ang buhok nya pababa sa matigas nyang likod, napapangiti na pumikit. At duon naka tulog ako ng mahimbing.