I Can't Stop [Niam]

Chapter 11

I thought you guys could use some Niam fluff after all the angst I've been putting through. Enjoy! :)

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Liam Payne is kissing me. Liam Payne’s lips are on my lips. Liam Payne is willing forcing his lips on mine.

But why am I not responding? I have been wanting, dreaming, of this for years. Why aren’t my lips nudging his back? Why am I still frozen in shock? He’s going to get the wrong idea. Why am I not kissing him, I should be kissing him, I really want to kiss him. Brain, why are you not working with my lips?

After a few minutes of me not responding Liam pulled back with hurt in his eyes. “I’m sorry Ni, I just thought you wanted that as much as me.” He looked so hurt.

He started to get off of me and that is when my spell broke. I brought my face up and crashed my lips on his. He was shocked at first, but he soon recovered and starting pushing back.

The kiss was everything I could hope for and more. His lips are so soft yet rough at the same, forming a delicious combination. I licked at his bottom lip for entrance. He gladly opened up for me and I explored every corner of the inside of his mouth. Our tongues battled briefly for dominance and eventually he won out.

I forgot all my insecurities in that kiss. I forgot about how I am not good enough, about how much I weigh, how Liam would never love me. Because I am making out with Liam Payne. I will never be able to get over this.

After a while we pulled away from each other with the need for air. He rested his head on mine and stared deep into my eyes. In that moment everything was perfect.

But all good things must come to an end.

Sophia.

I pushed Liam off me, with a strength that even surprised me, and jumped up to my feet. Liam stared at me from the ground with confusion. I can feel myself shaking with despair and the start of an anxiety attack.

Liam jumped up now as well and put his hand on my back. I jumped away from his touch. “Niall, calm down. It’s alright, everything is alright.” Liam said soothingly.

No, no. Everything is not alright. “No! Why did you kiss me? You have a girlfriend!” I shouted at him, my shaking was getting worse.

Liam looked at me with confusion and then a light bulb hit him all of a sudden. “Niall, you’ve got it all wrong. I don’t have a girlfriend.”

“Did you forget about Sophia?” I said shakily and kind of harshly.

Liam sighed. “The situation is kind of hard to explain Ni, but please calm down so I can explain it to you.”

I nodded and tried to calm down. I used the techniques my psychiatrist taught me when I was ten. I took a deep breath and started counting backwards from ten and then let the breath out. I immediately started feeling calmer.

I nodded at Liam to start. Liam sighed and ran a hand through his disheveled hair. “I want to just start off by saying that Sophia and I aren’t dating, we have never dated actually. I know you have seen us kiss and hold hands before, but it was all just an act. Sophia and I have just pretending to date for a while. I know that makes this whole situation a little more confusing but there are good reasons behind it. Me and her have been friends since we were little kids and we both have a similar problem. Neither of us is straight and we were just too scared to come out in public. Both of us are terrified of getting bullied. But, I can’t take it anymore Niall. I’ve had a crush on you for the longest time and when I fell on top of you just now, I couldn’t help myself. I had to take the opportunity. I just had to kiss you.”

I stood there shocked. That was a lot to take in. Liam Payne, the boy that I am in love with, just admitted to me that he likes me too. He just told me that he wanted to kiss me and he just couldn’t help himself. Liam Payne likes me!

I bit my lip to keep from smiling, but I couldn’t help it. I had the biggest smile on my face. Probably, the first real smile I have had in a while.

Liam beamed at me and took a step closer to me. “I take it that me kissing you was not a bad thing then?”

I took a step closer to him. “It’s definitely not a bad thing.” I whispered to him.

He took a step closer, we were now chest to chest. He brought his lips down and crashed them against mine again. I wrapped my arms around his neck and tangled my hands in his hair. He wrapped his arms loosely around my waist. Thank God too, I still don’t need him feeling how much waist is actually there.

We kept this kiss slow and passionate. We both poured all the pent up emotions that we had for each other all the years into that one kiss. This kiss may have been just has good, if not better than our first kiss, the one where I responded to.

We pulled back after a few minutes and he rested his forehead on mine again. I stared deeply into his eyes. “What does this mean now?” I whispered against his lips.

He pecked my lips a few times before he answered me. “Niall Horan, will you do me the honor of going out with me?”

I grinned and kissed his lips a few more times. “Do you need to ask?”

He responded by pulling me down into another passionate kiss.