Spencer Reid imagines.

Mess

if you know who you are in this one i love you let's be friends.

"why are you doing this?" you asked your boyfriend, Spencer as you grabbed his hands.

You've been together for 3 years and everything was perfect. You've met him in a bar you performed in on one of his night outs with the team. You got the courage to talk to him and you clicked immediately.

But this past weeks he'd been distant. he left early to work and returned when you were already asleep, he didn't call anymore, not even a text telling you he was okay.

He pulled his hands away from yours and stood up. "You have an opportunity in L.A. You should take it, i'm no help with my problem, my job. it's not going to work out"

"i don't want that stupid contract if it means i'll be without you, Spencer. i love you, i could get a job here and make this work, just please.." you felt the tears you were holding slid down your face.

You stepped closer to him and reach your hand to touch his arm but he took a step back wincing.

"i'm sorry, but whether you stay or not, i don't want to be with you anymore. I have a case and i'll be out a few days, please be gone when i get back. i'm sorry (y/n), but it's over." he said grabbing his stuff and walking out of the door.

Those were the last few words he said to you before he blocked you out of his life as well as your 'friends'. the whole team turned their backs to you, leaving nothing for you in that place.

So you took the opportunity to be the one who opened for Imagine Dragons on their tour and started a new career. The first few months were fine. You were excited and the people loved you for your honesty and your passion. but a year after, that new life took a toll on you, you started smoking and drinking. You dated a few guys who made you remember how worthless you felt when Spencer left you out of his life.

You continued to make music. more crude and stripped. you grew more and more depressed, specially after you heard how healthy and happy Spencer was with a girl named Maeve Donovan. That's when you decided you didn't want to know more about his life.

So in year two, when the tour was finished and you had a break, you went back to smoking and drinking almost to death. You were found sitting in a booth in the back of the same bar, almost everyday.

Today was one of your 'bad days' so by 7 pm you were on drink number 4, so the night was just getting started. You were watching your 'boyfriend' dance with other girl when you heard a familiar voice talk to the barman next to you.

"Hi, i'm Agent Jareau, this is Agent Blake. were with the FBI investigating a series of murders and we'd like if you could answer some questions" she said showing her badge to the man.

You turned your head towards the voice and when you saw her, a small gasp escaped your lips. JJ looked as beautiful as ever. you'd heard she had a little boy. And even though her eyes looked tired, they had light.

"i'm sorry Agents, i don't pay attention to any of the man here, i just do my work." he said cleaning some glasses.

"we believe he targets attractive woman's, maybe recognised in the industry like models and musicians."

"well i can't tell you anything but here, my little friend can help you, she almost lives here. i might charge you rent, honey" he grinned at you, putting a drink in front of you.

"fuck you, bobby" you glared at him. he shrugged his shoulders and walked away.

"oh my god. (y/n)? i-is that you?" she asked, surprise written all over her face.

"Jennifer, it's amazing seeing you again. after what? 2 years of you ignoring me?" you sassed. You drowned your drink, ready to leave.

"miss (y/n), we'd like to ask you a few questions about a series of..."

"..a series of murders of well known girls. yeah yeah. i don't pay attention to the man in here."
you interrupted the Agent next to JJ.

"what happened to you?" JJ blurted out, still not believing it was you.

"well, given the fact that i'm no help with your case i'm gonna go. please don't contact me." You stared to walk to the exit until you felt a pair of cuffs around your wrists.

"sorry but until we catch this guy, you need to stay with us. Maybe once you sober up, you can answer our questions." She said dragging you to the SUV.

You knew you she couldn't do this, but you were too tired to fight.

"well isn't this a great start? first you kick me out of your life and then you treat me like a criminal. you do know how to be a good friend" You knew it hurt her, and that's what you wanted. To make her feel as bad as they made you feel when everyone turned their back to you.

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Spencer and Derek entered the office, both looking for Hotch to tell him the information they got from the last dump site.

"Reid, Morgan" Hotch called "there's something you need to see."

Both glanced at each other and followed Hotch. "what's going on?" Derek asked.

"We might have a witness, she's in the interrogation room with Prentiss and Rossi" Hotch explained.

Spencer noticed the tension on his face, and when he saw JJ's worried eyes, he knew something was wrong.

They entered the office, and when they looked at the glass separating the room, they gasped.

"is that..?" Derek choked out, pointing at you. Hotch nodded and turned to Spencer, who was still froze in his place.

Slowly, he got closer to the glass and pressed the speaker button so he could hear the conversation between the three of you.

"i just don't understand. García checks on you often and you looked fine. happy." Rossi said.

You didn't take your eyes off the table in front of you. "yeah well, you know what they say about social media. whole different world." you snickered.

"then what happened? you have everything. this just doesn't make sense" Emily asked.

You smiled, but they knew was a fake one.
"what happened? are you really asking me that? huh, i don't know, maybe the fact that the love of my life and the people i thought were my family kicked me out of their life like i was nothing made me a little upset maybe"

Spencer felt a rush of anger go through his body and pushed his way into the room.

"how could you say something like that? are you really that blind? i was holding you back! i couldn't ruin your only opportunity to do what you love!" he yelled, watching your eyes grow wide in anger.

You stood up, stumbling a bit from the feeling of the room spinning. "The only thing i love was you!" the whole room went quiet. "i told you i was willing to give up everything because the only thing that made me happy was you, and the team. after you broke up with me, i was still going to stay because i wanted to at least have you in my life, but you and everyone else turned me down. You ignored me for months until i realised there was nothing left for me here anymore."

You suddenly felt too dizzy and the room started to go black as you fell back into your seat. You heard Rossi called for you and before you passed out you saw Emily and Spencer go out of the room. it didn't surprise you, but it hurt.

eeeeehmerrrgerrd i hope this is okay i'm just never sure about my writings haha.🌿