dancing on my own

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You came to understand that life would often surprise you when you least expect it.
When you joined the BAU for the first time, you didn't hope to make friends, you expected to be like any other strict job, but there you are, planning Sunday dinners and connecting with everyone on the team to the point that you could call them a family.
You also didn't expect to have fallen in love with someone, but...here you were.
Spencer and you had a connection like no other, the once shy and introverted man had bared his soul to you and you did the same

And everyone knew, everyone could see the way you talked to eachother and the way you'd look at him. But unfortunately that look was never actually returned.
You soon found out that Spencer was a hopeless romantic, and not the good kind.
He was in and out of relationships, claiming that 'this is the one, (y/n), i can feel it.'

but they always ended the same, Spencer broken and you right there, picking up the pieces.

It was heartbreaking for you too, but what were you supposed to do? Confess your love, get rejected AND lose your best friend? no thanks.

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'Last night was the best night ever'

You crack one eye open 'i should've never given you a fucking key' you groaned.

'You love me' he laughed and laid beside you.'So..i think this girl is the one'

You got up and walked around looking for your slippers.

'really?' he was so deep into his fantasy to recognize the sarcasm in your words.

'yes, it was so perfect and we just had something. she's it, i just can feel it' He swooned following you to the kitchen and starting the coffee.

'Every girl you meet is 'it'' you rolled your eyes.

'what's that supposed to mean?'

'Spence, come on' you sighed. 'its always the same and you know it'

His body tensed, and you could already feel this wasn't going to end well.

'How dumb of me to think my best friend would be happy for me' he scoffed. 'you know what? I'm just gonna go' he grabbed his coat and his bag

'shit,' you cursed under your breath. 'Spence, wait!' you grabbed his arm as it reached for the door. 'I'm sorry, i woke up grumpy, i am very happy for you'

he looks hesitantly at you 'really?'

'really, im very happy you've found love'

His eyes soften and he pulls you into a hug. 'Thank you, i knew i could count on you' he pulled back and pouted. 'i dont want toast, can you make pancakes?'

You glared at him playfully. 'Dont push your luck, asshole'

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After work you were heading down to Spencer's, when you felt your phone vibrate.

Are you coming over?

Be there in 10. You replied.

As open the door you hear voices, so you walk in the living room and see Spencer and a girl sitting on the couch.

'uh..hi.' you say unsure of what happened to your plans.

'oh hey! Lindsay, this is (y/n) my best friend, (y/n/n), this is my girlfriend'

your eyebrows frown in confusion. 'what happened to...?' he glares at you and you keep quiet.

After that awkward moment you move to the couch and its some time till you get fed up with them just nuzzling eachother and giggling every 5 seconds.

You're just tired of Spencer being fucking blind.
Tired of watching girls come and go as you try your best to pick up Spencer's broken pieces.
Just...tired.

You stand up grabbing your things and head out the door.
You're flying down a cab and are just about to get on when you hear him.

'(y/n)!...hey! hey wait!'

you sigh and turn around 'you should go back to your date, i was just leaving'

'not until you tell me what was that about, you always act this way whenever you're around my dates' he crosses his arms waiting for a response.

'its nothing'

'its always nothing with you! even when you're like this its still nothing'

'Spencer i really dont want to talk about it, okay? ill see you tomorrow'

He grabs your arm and shoots the car door.
'No, you're not leaving here until you tell me what's wrong with you and why you're suddenly acting like this-this..'

'id watch my mouth if i were you'

'oh yeah? or what? you're gonna storm out and be an ass? cause you already did that'

you let out a bitter laugh. 'jesus..' you say and look away.

You dont know what else to say so you opt to go before you say something stupid.

He doesn't stop you.

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You're laying down watching a movie when you hear a soft knock on the door.

You open the door and your heart clenches at the sight of him. 'what are you doing here?'

'Its been a week, (y/n). I shouldn't have said what i said and i'm sorry, can we talk about it and move on?' he steps closer. 'i need my best friend back'

'i can't' you step back and walk to the couch.

he sits next to you. 'why not?'

'because it would ruin us' you groan. In the past week you had decided you were done torturing yourself by watching Spencer with all those girls, you either tell him the truth or you let him go.

he takes your hand in his. 'you can tell me anything, (y/n/n). nothing you say could ever ruin our friendship'

you sigh and close your eyes. 'i- uh...i can't keep watching you be with all those girls, i cant see you fall in love with them when i want to be the only one you fall for'

'what?'

'i love you, Spence' your voice breaks. 'and i can't keep watching you date other people cause its killing me'

Slowly dropping your hands as he turns away, you know this is it, and he's leaving without another word.

This time you don't stop him.

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