Paper Moon

Chapter 14

(Edited)
Haley's pov (could be triggering)
I woke up with a pounding headache. I feel like shit, probably look like it too. I yawned and rubbed my eyes. The bus is really quiet right now.

I slid out of my bunk and walked to the kitchen. I opened the cupboard and grabbed my box of pop tarts. It was when I was attempting to open my pop tart bag that I realized I was shaking.

"Fuck" I mumbled. I walked to the back room and sat down. My shaking was pretty bad and my knee was going crazy. After a few failed attempts at opening my pop-tart bag I threw it across the room and made my way to the bathroom.

I closed and locked the door. Looking in the mirror I saw a scar lining my jaw. It wasn't completely noticeable, but if you were examining my face you would see it. I sighed. A constant reminder of what happened.

I'm such a freak. What kind of person let's that happen to themselves? I should've done something but I didn't. Why didn't I do anything.

An urge that I hadn't felt since the day I met Dad came back. I glanced at my arm then pulled it up so I could look at it. I scanned my arm and noticed faded scars from nights when I just wanted to end it all.

I wanted to hurt myself for being so... So stupid. I wanted the feeling to go away. I grabbed my arm and pressed hard on it. The urge subsided but the feeling lingered near.

I need a little room to breath. I need to get out. I need something. I need..... I need dad.

I walked out of the bathroom. I stopped and held my hand out in front of me to check if I was still shaking. I was.

I walked downstairs hoping that he would be there but judging by the darkness in my soul- I mean outside he's at the concert. Where's Axel?

I stopped again to check my shaking and realized it was getting worse. Worse? What if it doesn't stop? What if I can't control it? What if?

Ok Haley you need to calm down. Just take a deep breath in. Let that deep breath out. Just go back upstairs, Sophie is probably up there just hang with her.

I walked back upstairs and over to the back room. I sat on the couch and noticed the pop-tart I had thrown earlier was still there. I just starred at it. I want it, but I'm too lazy to get it.

I sighed and grabbed my phone from my back pocket then laid on my stomach. I was still shaking but I was getting used to it. I went through my contacts and found 'I'm not short I'm Frank Iero sized' then clicked FaceTime.

It rang twice before Frank picked up. "Halo!!!! Long time no see!!! I missed you!" I let a shaky breath out and nodded. "I missed you too. I miss all of you guys, you guys need to visit" I said and he nodded.

"Halo are you ok?" He asked. I nodded then shook my head no. "No, my anxiety is bad right now and everyone's at the concert" I said and he nodded. "Have you been crying?" He asked and I nodded.

"Is it that obvious?" I asked. "No, I just know you Halo. I can tell when somethings wrong." I nodded and sighed. "What are you doing?" "Watching Tv, what about you?" "I wanted to eat a pop-tart but my hands were shaking so I couldn't open the package. I got frustrated and threw it across the room." I turned the camera and showed him the pop-tart that laid on the floor across the room.

"Frank what do you want from Carl's Jr? Gerard's ordering." Ray asked Frank from his Frank's door way. "Um the usual, ohh and tell Gee to come here when he's done." Ray nodded then walked out.

I felt a small poke in my side. "Stop it." I felt another poke and sighed. "I said stop it." Wait. Who the FUCK is poking me if everyone's at the concert.

My anxiety started to get worse. "F-frank" I stuttered out. "Halo you need to breath ok? Breath with me. In. Out. In. Out." I did breathing exercises with Frank for a minute or two.

"Halo your really jumpy" Frank said and I nodded. A hand grabbed my shoulder an I jumped. "Sorry if I scared you" a thick British accent said. "Frank there's a brits on the bus. I grabbed my phone and turned around facing a familiar looking guy.

"Frank who's this?" My heart was pounding in my chest as I stood face to face with I don't know who.

"Is he gonna kill me?" I whispered to Frank before turning the camera so he could see. Frank bust out laughing. "Halo he's not gonna- he's not gonna kill you" he continued to laugh, "Hey Oli" Frank waved.

"Hey Frank." I stood there awkwardly trying to fix my breathing. "Halo that guy is Oliver Sykes. He's part of Bring Me The Horizon" Frank explained. "Bring Me The Horizon? Of Mice talks about you guys sometimes" I said and he nodded. "We know each other" Oli said.

"Hey Halo I'll talk to you later I'm getting a call. Bye I love you" "bye Frank I love you too." He hung up and I was left with Oli. "Can you help me with something?" I asked, he nodded.

I pointed to the pop-tart that was still in its bag across the room. "Why is that there?" He asked and I shrugged. "I got frustrated and threw it across the room. Can you help me open it?" I asked. He nodded and walked over to it. I held my hand out and my shaking wasn't as bad.

He opened it then brought the bag over to me. "There you go love" I thanked him then sat on the couch. "Wanna watch TV with me?" I asked and he shrugged. "Do you like Arrow?" "I don't know what that is." "Holy crap your missing out."

I put on Arrow. Oli and I sat watching Arrow till I ended up falling asleep cuddled up to him. Today was tiering.