mananff: my life starts with you ✔

chapter-5. hate the way i love you....

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Nandini's POV
After rivu left. I was feeling little calm but on the same time suffocated to....so decided to go to park for a walk....it was 8pm ....

It was not much crowdy as it was almost night.....so it was peace here....a strange thought was bugging me since the time I saw cavya....what if they are back then he too is back.....would I be able to face him....would be able to maintain my fake smile....or I will again fall weak?..but I can't fall weak.....lost in my thoughts I listened someone playing guitar.....but the lyrics catched by attention....yeah I have listened these lyrics somewhere??..but where... I decided to go near it....

Ye dooriyan Ye dooriyan Ye dooriyan

These distances....

( yeah its a song of fab5 ..a very famous band of London....their songs are really peacefully...it seems like the lead. singer is in pain....but there songs always makes me happy and contented ....I even searched about them on internet .....but they have not revealed their identity to the public ....they used to just release the album...there always some hidden meanining and strange connection in their song...)

In raahon ki dooriyan Nigaahon ki dooriyan Hum-raahon ki dooriyan Fanaah ho sabhi dooriyan

The distance between paths
The distance between eyes
The distance between companions
All these distances should finish

( again I was lost....the day he left was the day I smiled for the last time.....there was a time when we were not able to live without eachother for even a day....where ever I go...my eyes always searched for him.....when he left ...I lived with the hope that he will come back and with a wish that all these distances will finish soon....)

Kyun koi paas hai
Door hai Kyun koi
Jaane Na koi yahaan pe

Why someone is near
While someone is away?
Nobody knows this

(Why anyone has to come when they have to leave....is this a crime to expect someone to stay with us forever....why when I was having him I was not having my rivu...and when I and rivu came close....they all left....why??...is anyone having any answer for this.....)

Aa Raha paas ya door main ja raha
Janu na mein hoon kahaan pe

Am I coming near or going far?
I don't know where I am going

(I don't know if these distances has brought us together or ripped us apart....all I know is I don't hate him .....the cruel truth of my life...nandini can never hate manik....I hate the way I love him....I hate myself for still loving him.....choco can never hate sugar...even if choco became bitter but no matter what sugar will always be choco's first priority...)

Ye dooriyan
In raahon ki dooriyan
Nigaahon ki dooriyan
Hum-raahon ki dooriyan
Fanaah ho sabhi dooriyan

Ye dooriyan
Ye dooriyan

Kabhi hua ye bhi
Khaali raahon pe bhi
Tu tha mere saath

There was a time
When you were with me
Even on empty path
(I still remember our late night talks under the sky full of stars....when we used to walk togther hand in hand whispering sweet nothings .....I remember manik I remember everything its just you made me hate these memories.....I will never hate you coz you taught me the meaning of love but I hate myself for interpreting the meaning wrong...for thinking you as love....for me love meant you...and now love means a game which you plays to get your work done....love is nothing but a pain....a fake display of affection..)

Kabhi tujhe mil ke lauta
Mera dil ye khaali khaali haath
Ye bhi hua kabhi
Jaise hua abhi
Tujhko sabhi mein paa liya

There was a time
when my heart returned
empty handed after meeting you
This had happened
As if it has happened just now
I found you in everything

(That times when I lost my heart in your talks and to those dark eyes of yours....and not for once ...every time I saw in your eyes I was lost in it....I hate myself more for losing myself...today even you are far but still everything reminds me of yours...)

Not able to listen more I ran from there far enough where I cannot listen those lyrics....why I am feeling that everything is gonna change....don't know for worse or good but I have this strong feeling that return of cabir is a sign that they all are gonna come back...but why?? They have to come back and why cabir is here....where was he in these two years...
I was walking aimlessly when I bumped with someone I looked up to see a couple walking hand in hand talking to each other when I bumped with the girl...a lone tear escaped my eyes...seeing this...a memory came running back to my mind......
Flashback.-
Nandu and manik are walking in the garden hand in hand....they were discussing about cavya as they were fighting from each other.
Nandu- sugar yr I am worried nor cabu nor navyu wants to listen...they two are acting like a child...
Manik- I know even I tried talking to them but they are not ready to listen
Nandu-what if they keep fighting ?...I am scared now...
Manik(taking in side hug) -don't worry choco nothing sort of that will happen
Nandu- how are you soo sured??
Manik-because if you are truly in love then nothing can keep you apart....no matter how much you fight...at the end you will be toghter..
Nandu-woo...let's see then I hope everything goes well
Manik- it will get well...
Just then nandu's phone rang...it was cabir....
Cabir- nandu...meri jaane-e- man meri pyari behana I love you..
Nandu- I love you too but hoya kya h...
Cabir- hona kya tha navyu maan gyi. ..woh mujh se ussse dur nhi raha jaa raha tha toh I talked and now I am going on a dinner date...ye!!
Nandu- shant mere hyper joker.....enjoy yourself...okey....bbye..
Cabir-...bbye baby doll
Nandu and manik smiled to each other on listening to cabir...manik gave her a winning look while she gave him 'I m impressed look'

Flashback ends...
Tears came rolling down my eyes remembering that time....that time was so perfect...my perfect friends....perfect love ....everything was going on as I wished....but now I learnt that life can never be perfect !! ....how it can be ? when you have so fake people around you whom you once said your bestiess....and even your love.......were all fake!!
Suddenly my phone rang breaking my trance....I looked at the caller I'd it was unknown....
Nandu-hello?
Cabir-hii nandu
Nandu-its nandini (in a ice cold voice)
Cabir-(he felt hurt) sry ...woh I and navya were thinking let's have a dinner togheter I mean like old times you me navyu and rivu...that would be fun!!
Nandu-sry but I don't have dinner with strangers....sry for breaking your bubble but I am not coming their ..
Cabir-nandu...sry nandini...pls come na plss...you said you are not hurt...then pls come today...
Nandu-i even said you don't matter to me ...that means you're a stranger and I am busy right now...so bbye
Cabir-nandini listen toh.
But to his badluck call was cut....he sighed sadly...and went to stop overexcited navya for preparing dinner.....

Done with it....thanks everyone for your support...I hope you like this chap....do comment your views on the chap and suggestion too....manan meet will be there soon in coming 3-4 chaps...
Note-I wanna know that weather nandu should act with manik the same way she is acting with cabu or you want her to show her anger??do comment your suggestion I am really confused!!

Precap- cabir to talk about fab5 to nandu and manik n others to return India.....one new entry on the way....