Fake Love (Jerrie Fanfiction)

Chapter 32

You guys are so demanding!😂 But since I love you, here's the next chapter.😙💋❤

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Perrie's POV

What happened last night really went out of hand. I didn't mean to yell at Jade, I just had to make her stop. I was shocked, and I don't know why I said that. But it's the truth, right? She's not my girlfriend. But after I said that, mixed emotions flashed through her eyes. Sadness, anger, fear, longing... she looked so vulnerable, but I had to stop myself from running to her and hug her tight, and tell her I'm sorry and that I didn't mean what I said. That's what my heart wanted me to do, but my brain told me the opposite. And of course I followed my brain, just like I followed it when I woke up on her bed.

-Flashback-

Sometime at dawn, I was awaken by an insistently full bladder. I carefully extracted myself from Jade's arms, I stood up and padded to the bathroom. On my way back to bed, I paused, captivated by the sight of her sleeping form visible in the soft spill of light from the windows. She was on her stomach, facing away from me, one arm curled above her head and the other under her pillow. We'd kicked most of the covers off during the night, exposing the long expanse of her back. I stared at her in wonder. She was astonishing. Fierce and gentle, delicate and strong, a perfect fusion of sharp angles and soft curves, and truly the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. I sighed softly when I realized that I was in deep, deep trouble. When I thought before about my feelings for Jade, I'd been unsure and 'love' was not the word to explain my emotions. But now I was sure. Sometime during the night, the feelings I had for Jade had intensified into something very deep, very strong, and so frightening. I had no doubts about it now - I am in love with her.

I dropped heavily on the chair she had pulled out last night and sighed again. I sat for a long time, contemplating the goddess in front of me and the many ways she could hurt me. She makes me happy and I should enjoy this for as long as it lasted. She made me feel so much, and no one had ever made me feel that way before. She made me forget everything outside of her bedroom, she made me forget all the reasons for whatever we have been doing. All that mattered then was just me and her, the way she holds me with care and gentleness, the looks of her eyes, and the way she made me feel loved. But I'm scared. What if everything was just part of our own little show? What if she doesn't feel the same way? What if she leaves me after the agreement's done? Dammit! She would either be the best thing that ever happened to me, or a spectacular crash and burn that would fuck me up for a good long time. I need to go. I don't think I can handle it if she woke up and the looks of her eyes from last night were no longer there. I need to save myself before it was too late. I grabbed my clothes, put them on quickly and walked to the door. I glanced over at Jade one last time before I walked out of her room.

-End of flashback-

I've been trying to contact her but she's not answering my calls and responding to my texts. I was worried because after I yelled at her she run away. Did I hurt her? So many thoughts came flooding my mind and I don't know what to think anymore. Then someone clearing their throat snapped me out of my reverie.

"Pez, there's something I need to tell you." Jesy said as she sat down next to me on the couch at my living room.

"Yeah, what is it?" I asked, glancing at my phone, hoping Jade had finally decided to respond to me.

"Paul just called and he told me that Jade had just terminated the agreement." she said hesitantly.

"She what?!" I exclaimed. Did I heard that right?

"She terminated the agreement. You two no longer have to pretend to be dating." she explained.

"But why? Is it because of last night? I thought you and Paul made it sure that nothing about what happened come out to the media." I blabbered. Oh no!