Hidden Secrets

Chapter 21

Last night Blake decided to go back to Josh's house and spend time with him. Honestly I kind of miss him. But that's beside the point. It's nice to have mommy and daughter time too. It's been a few weeks since he's been staying with us and I'm used to always being home with Emma. Ever since Blake found out he really stepped up and became a father to her. And trust me, Emma absolutely adores him as much as I do.

I hear knocks on my door, effectively snapping me out of my thoughts. I walk over to it and Ashley practically sprints pass me. She runs straight into the bathroom and I hear her puking.

God I miss those days...not

After a few minute she comes out as she wipes her mouth with some tissue.

"You okay?" I ask

"Yea" She sighs "I just can't keep anything down. There's just so much going on right now with the pregnancy and my wedding is only two weeks away"

"Pace yourself. Everything will be fine" I say as she sits down next to me on the couch

Ashley is about 11 weeks and she's barely showing which is a great sign because she won't have to go through a lot of stress with altering her dress.

"Where's Em?" She asks

"Sleeping" I say "I put her down for a nap about 15 minutes ago since she was really cranky"

"Is it hard?" She asks suddenly

"What?" I ask "Putting Emma to sleep? Sometimes bu-"

"No" She says "Is it hard being a parent?"

"Of course it is. You can never be truly ready for a baby. It just happens and it's a wonderful thing to experience. I wouldn't give it up for the world. You don't know what love is until you have a kid. Granted it was especially hard for me since I had her at 17 but still it was worth it" I smile

"I'm just scared because Josh and I we never talked about kids. We both knew that we wanted kids down the line after we were married, but we never talked about when it was the right time to start trying, how many we want, or anything" She says

"What are you so afraid of? Ash he loves you and he's going to love the baby" I smile

"I know he loves me and the baby. It's just that everyone says the first year of marriage is the hardest and now especially with a baby. What if it gets too hard and we give up? Or worse we grow apart and we find other people?" She says with tears slipping

"Ash" I say sternly "It's just the hormones talking"

"We haven't even had sex since he found out" She cries "And I'm gaining weight. He probably doesn't want to have sex with a fat pregnant lady"

"That fat pregnant lady is his soon to be wife. If he wasn't so sure about his love for you, he wouldn't have proposed" I state "He probably thinks you're too delicate and one wrong move can lead to something happening to the baby."

"I hate feeling like this!" She groans "I'm so fucking bipolar now. All I want is my fiance to have sex with me! I'm hormonal, every time I see him I just want to-"

"Ookkk I don't want to know what happens with you and my brother in the bedroom" I say "I was the same way. Eventually, more towards the end though. G home, light some candles, and seduce your fiance"

She perks up and grabs her stuff before shouting a goodbye before running out of my apartment. Seems like she's going to be very busy for a couple hours.

I sigh and walk to my room. I run a hot shower and get in. I let the warm water run down my body before washing my body and hair. When I get out I wrap a towel around my body and walk into my room. I put on one of Blake's shirts with some black workout shorts.