Equilibrium (A Blue Exorcist Fanfiction)

Reality

I don't even know if I should be here... Rin could be... He could be dead and it would be all my fault. Just being here puts him in danger... I should just go.

I stand up and the chair by Rin's bedside moves a bit, making a creaking like sound. Just as I'm about to put my hand on the door handle, I hear Rin tossing and turning in the bed. I stop, hoping that he wasn't woken up.

At least he's alive... Just please don't see me...

"Where are you going?" Rin asks, sitting up and yawning.

I guess I've been caught...

"Nowhere." I once again take a seat in the chair beside Rin.

"It's ok if you want to leave." He says, laying back down in the bed. "I don't mind."

Ok, now I feel like I'm being guilt tripped.

"I'm not leaving, especially not now."

Besides...I did promise Shiemi.

"You'll miss out on your classes, Yin. I'll be here later. And if not, then I'll come see you."

"I have all my classes with Shiemi except one. I'll get whatever I missed from her and then ask someone else about the other stuff."

"Alright..."

The room fills with silence since neither of us are speaking anymore. The fact that there's two of us in the room and that it's so quiet makes things feel awkward. I direct my attention towards the floor to make it seem less awkward but it doesn't help at all.

About 30 minutes pass and I just can't keep quiet anymore. I have too much to say to hold it in.

"Rin-"

I break the silence but not how I intended to. Instead of letting everything out, I just stop barely making it halfway through my sentence. I'm too shocked to continue.

What happened...? Why is he-

I almost jump out of the chair and a scream escapes me before I can even do anything to stop it from coming out.

Rin turns to look at me with blood red eyes and smiles as if a totally different person jumped inside his body. His smile is no longer adorable, friendly, and inviting; it's menacing, dark, and most of all malevolent. He gets out of the bed and takes slow steps toward me. I find myself panicking because of the sight and I fall backwards onto the floor. Despite that, I keep moving, scooting myself away from him. But eventually my back bumps the wall and I have nowhere to go.

Rin kneels down next to me and puts his hands on my shoulders.

"What's wrong?" He asks, the smile on his face now gone. I simply shake my head, saying that there's nothing wrong. His once worried look then changes into a look of despondence.

Rin...what's happened to you?

Tears as red as blood fall down his face in streams and finally fall onto the ground below.

"How could you let this happen to me?" His voice wavers as he speaks and he turns his head away from me, his hair just barely missing my face. More tears drop from his eyes. It's almost as if he didn't want me to see him cry.

"It's ok..." I can feel tears welling up in my eyes so I smile to try to keep them from falling. They fall anyway but I keep the smile on my face. I'm more concerned with Rin's tears. I put a hand on his cheek and he looks toward me, eyes bigger than before. I wipe away his own tears. "I wouldn't ever allow that to happen...not to you or anyone else."

So don't cry... Someone as bright and as happy as you doesn't deserve to shed tears like these.

"Yin!"

My eyes open to see Rin sitting in front of me with a concerned look on his face.

"You...were asleep..."