drugs & alcohol | d.l

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5 months later...
Sitting up from the couch, I pickup the dirty dishes that have been sitting around the house for the last couple of hours... damn boys and their fucking hygiene. I walk to the kitchen and place the dishes in the sink. Leaning up against the counter, I look at my feet and think about how life used to be before I met these boys, before I met Nate, Sammy, the Jack's , Dillon, Swazz, Derek.

Life used to be so simple, I went to school with my best friend, I went home to my mum and fat shit of a cat everyday and watched tv, I had fun... and now I live with like 50 guys who have no respect for the bloody neighbours, smoke weed, get drunk at 10am, leave their clothes all over the place, and don't clean up after themselves... "at least they shower and wear clean clothes" a little voice said to me in the back of my head. Yeah thank fuck for that. I said back, fuck. I'm going crazy.

I cleaned up the house for a bit, did the dishes and everyone's washing, folded the washing , put the washing away, washed the walls from the most recent party the boys had, and washed myself of all the sweat that was currently coming out of me. I was exhausted, I need sleep.

Just as I'm about to walk upstairs to go to the room, the doorbell rings and I decide I didn't want to answer it, so I kept going up the stairs, leaving the person to ring the doorbell, again, and again, and again, until Swazz comes bursting out of his bedroom and barrelling down the staircase in a hurry to get to the door, sending a glare my way knowing I didn't answer on purpose.

I hear him open the door, and there's a conversation going on that sounds pretty serious, so I go back down the staircase as quiet as possible to try and hear what's going on.
"....After so long man, why the fuck did you decide to show up now of all times?" I heard Swazz say.
"Look I've been keeping myself busy bro, I've been getting clean,of everything, getting my shit back together, I just wanna see my girl, come on man let me in." I heard an all too familiar voice that I never wanted to hear again.
"She moved on, D. She doesn't want to see you, she's happy now" Swazz says, trying to be as nice as he can.
I decide I've had enough of listening and want to go see what the fuck is going on, so I step back a little, preparing myself to make it look like I just came down the stairs, I step down the last flight of stairs fast but carefully, making sure I don't fall on my ass, I walk around the corner towards the front door.
"Swazz, what's going on?" I ask, pretending to not know what was happening, even though I'm pretty sure Swazz could see straight through my act.
I face the front door and Im forced to suck in a deep breath at the sight in front of me, those beautiful brown eyes that I used to love waking up to, his gorgeous smile, that dark brown hair with the blonde ish highlights at the front of his forehead, wearing his usual clothing style he always loved, but this time I saw him, he looked different, healthier, more buff, the old bags under his eyes were gone, his cheekbones were more plump and full, still incredibly fit and perfect in every way possible, but the difference is, when I looked at him, I didn't feel anything, no spark, no butterflies, no shyness or blushing, nothing.
"Derek." I say a little softer than I was hoping it to be.
"Kiran." The moment he saw me he looked like he'd been ripped to pieces, like he'd never seen a sight so heartbreaking before.
He looked me up and down for felt like hours before speaking the two words I never use to think I'd ever hear, or ever want to hear, the two words that changed my life, made me clean myself up, get a job, pull myself back together and live life healthier and better.

"You're pregnant?"
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AAAAANNDDD THATS THE END😭 I know this is a really short chapter for the ending but it's really late and I felt like this book was just being dragged on so after a lot of debating I decided that it would be best to end it and let it be. BUT! I am starting a new book that I'm really excited for and I can't wait to publish it😍😍 I'm currently writing draft chapters and figuring out how I want it to be written, and I've been non stop editing this one FLACKING chapter for almost a week now and I think I'm finally ready to put it out into the world for the people to read.😉😉 personally I'm really keen on writing this new book, I think it'll be pretty good but who knows, well just have to see what happens👀
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