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Chapter 8 : Dilemma (Louisa)

Will was away and he had taken a piece of me with him too. If he noticed that. Or did he notice that. He wasn't gone for long. But still it felt like eternity. We had stopped communicating like we used to do before. Will got busy and so did i. We started to see less of each other and sometimes didn't even see each other at all. It was hard, frustrating and painful. For me atleast. Did Will feel the same way?. Was it as hard,as frustrating and as painful as it was for me?. I mean we knew that we were in love . But i fell in love with Will when he wasn't normal. When he was paralyzed. And i still love him now. My feelings won't change for him. But i was unsure about the feelings he had for me. I still remember Will Saying that i never saw him before his accident. He used to say that he loved his life. He mentioned girls looking at him and commenting. He mentioned he was really popular.

All that was good. All that was okay. But was he still the same man?. I mean was he the Will Traynor that i had fallen in love with?. Was he still the same caring and loving man who had lost his ray of hope or was he changing to the old Will Traynor again ?. He had got his previous life back in one way or the other. But was he going to be as kind and caring as he was when he was paralyzed?. That doubt still irritated me. He loved me i knew that . But what if this was only a fantasy for a few days?. He was the heir to Traynor Industries. I mean he was extremely rich. On the other hand i was a common girl ,who worked at the florists and tried to make everyone happy. In society ,i was no one infront of him.

I had no problems of him working and being busy. I was happy that he was like that. Atleast he had his normal life back. I loved him dearly too. I will always love him. But these doubts still continued to haunt me. If Will wouldn't have been paralyzed,we would have never crossed paths?!. We would have never met each other. Or if we would have ,would Will ever notice me?".
I was like an invisible,in high society and Will was very much visible in it. This kept on haunting me. What if one day i lose him?. What if one day i lose him and fail to tell him my true feelings?. I loved him too much and i would be with him through his best and worst, through his positives and negatives, through his first and his last. The point was did he love me this much too?.

I decided to talk to him about this once he came back. I didn't want to bother him now. I wanted him to be busy and be Normal. Atleast a Normal life of a busy businessman!. My feelings for him were honest and true. I just knew that i loved him dearly. It was all that mattered.