WITH YOU....

Epilogue....

"As I walk through life,
I look at all I have done.
I had wandered aimlessly,
And wondered what I have become.

I have been through so much.
It is amazing I made it through.
Lessons I have learned.
I am shocked I pulled through.

At times I wondered
What life was all about.
The trials experienced in life
Can make all the good come out.

We try to make it day by day,
Remembering what we were taught.
Just remember some time to pray.
It is important;
We need it every day.

Life can be short,
Unexpected at that.
We try to take its punches,
Just hoping it won't break our back.

Remember who you are,
Who you want to become.
Everything will fall into place,
When the time comes.

Don't forget I love you's
Every chance you get.
The time may be short.
There is no time to regret.

Life can be exciting,
As we all have found out,
Eventful, even busy.
There is no time to be left out.

Remember who you are
And who you want to become.
The time can be short.
Don't leave things undone.

Remember your families,
They are the only ones you've got
To carry you in times of need.
They cannot be bought.

Remember they love you,
Either here or there.
They will always be with us,
Help for things to bear."

I put down my pen and leaned back on my chair. Time had passed. Days had passed since Louisa died. I still remember everything.  The sensation of each and every emotion,I can still feel it. The helplessness, vulnerability, hopelessness, negativity. I could still feel everything. I don't know if I had changed or not. I had gotten back to work after quite sometime. Tried to keep myself as busy as possible. If that couldn't happen,I used to come home early and spend time with Abigail. She was the only reason I smiled. I was happy when I was with her. My parents used to say that they had forgotten that I could smile and laugh...but when they saw me with Abigail, they said that they could see the real me. Even if it was for a few moments. They could see the real me.

Maybe it was true. Maybe it wasn't I don't know. I just wanted to take care of my daughter and be a good father to her. Abigail was five now. She was a bright girl. She was the most beautiful thing in the world. She had the same cheerfulness and carefree nature like her mother. She was like a tiny Louisa who used to run around here and there at the Traynor estate.
"Father"...
Suddenly my trance was broken by a touch on my cheek. Maybe I was crying.
"Why are you sad ?". Abigail asked innocently.
"No it's nothing baby ". I said wiping my tears off. I was thinking about Louisa and I didn't want my daughter to see me weak and vulnerable.
"No Something is wrong". She said holding my wrist.

I smiled at her. "I was feeling lonely honey that's it ". I said softly. She looked at me for a short while and then suddenly hugged me.
"Don't worry father I'm always going to be there with you . I will never ever leave you so you will never ever feel alone !". She said. I was taken aback by her words. Tears welled up in my eyes. I embraced her back tightly.
"Yes my baby girl yes you're all I have and I'm never leaving you or letting you leave me understand?".

"Yes father ". She said in a muffled voice.
  I can't stay like this forever. I have to be strong. I have to be strong for my daughter Because there are always some people in this world who will care about you no matter what happens. And now Abigail was my light in the darkness around me. I had to be there for her. She was my emotion of Happiness. She was something that I cherished more than my life and I will do everything everything in my power to keep her happy. This is a father's promise....