Unity | Harry Styles AU

XVII: the H word

I didn't go to "our" house after class today. I went back to my apartment.

I slammed my door aggressively behind me and jumped into my bed. The sheets were a tad dusty and very cold to the touch.

I didn't really know how to feel right now. There was a pit of despair beginning to form in my heart but it hasn't completely sunk in that Harry and I were no longer an item, I guess.

I searched my mind for things to do.

I couldn't call Harry and talk about it.

I couldn't text him and ask to go for dinner.

I couldn't go over to his place and ask him to take my mind off the pain.

I couldn't do anything that involved the H word.

But then again, what was there to do? I had completely adapted everything I enjoyed doing around him. There was nothing to do now.

Well, there was one thing.

I went through my purse and took out my phone. I dialed Alice's number.

She seemed like a friend who would understand my problem. She already had a hint of what was going on between us, and if I had to admit what I've done to anyone, it would have to be her first.

She answered immediately.

"Hey Lass, what's up?" Her bubbly voice said through the phone.

"Hey... Can we hang at my place for a bit? I kind of need someone right now." I said.

"For sure. I'm still at school but I was just about to leave so give me 15." She replied.

"Thanks. See you."

"Bye."

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Within the next twenty minutes, there was a knock on my door. I had been rehearsing how to tell her in the mirror. Now that Alice was actually here, I had completely forgotten what I was going to say.

I opened the door, and she walked right in, giving me hug before sitting down at the island and taking a bite out of a pear from the fruit bowl.

"So, lass." She said as she chewed her fruit. "What did you need help with? I'm basically a therapist so shoot." She chuckled.

"Okay. Here goes. And whatever happens this evening stays between us. Don't tell Maddie or Bella or anyone. You hear?" I said sternly. She rolled her eyes.

"I know. Just go on with it would you?" She said.

"So.." I hesitated before speaking. This was it. Harry told me not to tell anyone what was happening, but that was before. He ended things. So that deal was broken.

The anger I felt from the words he said earlier today fueled me and aided the words to come out of my mouth.

"Mr. Styles and I have been sleeping together-"

"Knew it." She interrupted.

"Alice!" I exclaimed. "I'm not done talking.. How did you even know?"

"You think i'm dumb? Everyone, literally everyone knows you've got a thing for him. You're always talking about him. He's the topic of all your conversations. And when we used to work together after school, he was always looking at you. And the way he looked at you; that's not how a teacher looks at a student. That's how someone who's in love looks at their lover." She said. I could feel my heart in my throat at the word love. It clearly wasn't love if he wasn't even affected when he told me we were done.