The 100 Imagines💯

Bellamy--- Can't Heal Death💙

Warning:
-Suicide
-Sad Imagine overall, sorry m8's :/

Love was an understatement for what you felt for Bellamy Blake. You felt it was your duty to be there for him. To help him. To guide him.

On the Ark, you remember, always letting him do your makeup with the melted crayons the nursery would hand out. Of course, he'd purposely mess up you're lips, eyes, cheeks, etc. But that was the fun of it.
On the Ark things felt calm but everyone had known something dark was brewing. People had always randomly been having shortage of breath near the end, before they left to the ground. But you never questioned the Chancellor, because he was that, the Chancellor.

You loved Bellamy with all your heart, and Octavia of course. You loved seeing them, being with them. You overall felt happy when they were near.

Now, it's a bit difficult to see them. Occasionally you'll sneak around and hide beyond the bend to look at them. Never speak to them though. Its too hard...
I won't get into the details just yet but... Oh, just looking at him makes your heart swell up.

And Octavia. She's gone through so much. Poor girl, she's so strong. So warrior-like.
That Lincoln she met is proud.

You've spoken to him a few times. Only on one subject. Octavia.
You shared your memories and he his, even though you've been there while they happened, you still liked to hear it.

Bellamy has changed so much it hurts your eyes. He's become an amazing man, strong, yet gentle. The man you once knew. Remembering the times when Bellamy swooped you into his arms every time you would meet puts a crack in your armor. A puzzle piece lost forever.

Now.
I'm dragging this on quite a bit aren't I?
Haha, reminiscing...

Sometimes you wish you hadn't taken that blade to your throat all those years ago.

But thinking of that now, makes you understand that you nor Bellamy or even Octavia, would be the person they are today if you hadn't taken your life that night.

You'd secretly been battling depression. Ironic, right? After all those happy things I'd told. Even so, you always felt an unbearable weight upon you. Until that cool steel pressed against your throat.

As your life slipped away.

So did the pain.

Watching Bellamy is both heart wrenching and heart warming.

Its hard to not speak to him, tell him you're fine, tell him you never meant to hurt him, seeing him fall in love with another doesn't hurt as much as you thought it might.
Clarke is a wonderful choice.
You'd met her once before on the Ark and had spoken to Lexa before about her.

There he sits now.

Thinking.

Maybe about you? Maybe about the end of the world.

You step into the room where he sits, his eyes fixed on a painting that is meaningless to you.

You smile as the hairs rise on his arms when your ghostly invisible hands touch them.

And then he says something that would make you cry if you physically could;

"(Y/n)?"

Got inspired after watching the first EP of "Thirteen Reasons Why" and reading "Sisters of Blood and Spirit"
Love the show thus far!🙈❤

HIGHLY recommend BOTH!