She's Not Afraid

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT: THE CONFESSION

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT: THE CONFESSION

*CHER'S POV*

"What the f***..." Louis' facial expression was unreadable.

"Uh... I think you should explain the situation." I whispered to Niall.

Then I saw my 'supposedly' boyfriend walk off, clearly pissed while his brother continued to stand in front of us.

"Aren't you going to slap him yet for making such a move on you?" Paris asked as he scratched his head.

"No, I think we should probably get off first since we're starting to gather a crowd here..." I stood up.

Once we were already outside, I decided to confront Niall right away.

"What is wrong with you? Aren't you supposed to chase after your man?" I folded my arms.

"My man? Oh, you mean Louis? Nah, we're cool." He just shrugs it off like it's no big deal.

"Jeez, guys can be so insensitive sometimes... fine then, I'll go after Louis and fix YOUR problem for you." I sighed heavily then started running to the direction where my 'boyfriend' who is also Niall's boyfriend, just ran into.

*NIALL'S POV*

"Uh, I don't think your tip worked, man." I faced Paris with a straight face.

"Um, yeah. I don't think it did either... why does that woman have to be so neutral all of the time? Now, I'm confused... but I thought she's your girlfriend so why would she just run off to chase after my brother, leaving you behind? Unless... she really does like him in totally different way." Paris blabbed which I didn't really pay attention to.

Wait a second... WHAT HAVE I JUST DONE?!

What if our friendship would be affected by just that?!

And I was THIS close in leaning in for a kiss too!

"I HAVE TO APOLOGIZE TO HER!" I suddenly panicked.

I shouldn't have listened to this bully right here...

Now my Cher-bear probably hates me!

*LOUIS' POV*

Jealousy is a rather BIG word when it comes to love...

Love? Well, I think I just got there.

Ugh. I'm starting to sound so melodramatic inside my head.

Does Niall like Cher too? And is the feeling mutual?!

Stop it, Louis! Think happy thoughts!

Okay, my happy thoughts are all about Cher... what the hell.

"LOUIS!" I heard her angelic voice call out to me which made my name sound so... extraordinary.

When I turned around, I was met by a pair of light brown eyes gazing up to me which were just too cute to resist.

"Not now, Cher. I'm not ready to face you yet..." I turned my back to her a bit dramatically.

"Are you seriously mad at me?" She asked.

"..." How can I even be mad at her?!

"Sorry, mate. I don't really know what's gotten into Niall." She tried to explain.

Something tells me that this is the part wherein I'm supposed to say sorry too and then tell her the truth.

Or should I tell the truth first and then the sorry?

Whatever.

I should just confess straight on!

"Cher, there's something you need to know..." I firmly placed both of my hands on either side of her shoulders.

"What?"

"I... I think... I mean, I don't only think that I... I know for sure that I'm... actually... in... love... with..." Damn, confessing your love for someone is harder than I thought!

I should've just stuck to telling her that I'm not gay and that I'm sorry.

"Niall?" She finished for me.

"Yeah. Wait, HUH?! Why would you immediately assume that?!" I failed.

"Duh, because he's your secret lover." She rolled her eyes.

Okay it's entirely my fault for letting her imagination become this uncontrollable.

"Actually, he's not because... I'm not gay." I finally spat it out.

"What? Why?" She looked confused.

"Well, I'm just not, okay? I never said I was and technically, I wasn't lying. I just didn't deny the fact that I'm not one. I did it because I wanted to be close to you since your walls are super high to reach up to the point that no one could get in..." I explained my side.

"You know what? It's because of situations like this that makes it harder for me to trust anyone of you. So good luck in trying to gain it back again for my walls just got extremely higher... and here I thought I'm starting to like you as a person..." Her words stung my heart BIG TIME.

Okay, maybe I should've just continued with the confession of my love for her instead...

*CHER'S POV*

Why do I feel 'betrayed' all of a sudden?

I admit that Louis has a point about my barrier that doesn't let people in so easily but... I can't quite explain why I'm feeling 'hurt' for the very first time which is worse than the feeling of being bullied.

I NEED A DOCTOR! Or in my case, an advice from my manager will do.

******

When we got home, I quickly headed straight to my room, passing by Paris in the hallways.

Without a warning, he suddenly tripped me with his foot but catches my hand anyway which served as my support so basically, I only ALMOST tripped.

"WHAT THE HELL?!?" I practically screamed into his face.

"Whoops. Relax, it's not like your pretty face landed on the floor." He muttered.

I shoved his hand right away for I don't have the time to deal with the guy.

"And I'm not here to fight you..." He threw both of his hands up in defense.

"Just wanted to say that I'm leaving already... wouldn't want to add up to your problems or to the list of guys who makes your head spin everyday. I also came to a realization that we're too much alike and that it would never work between us so... goodbye. You're better off with my brother." He bit his lip then forcefully pulled me into his warm embrace.

What is this guy talking about?

"And as much as I would want to take you with me for being such a cutie, I really can't. Why? Because that's what 'love' is all about... sometimes you just have to let go." He stated seriously with a sad expression on his face.

Somehow, I'm sort of learning from him for that phrase of his about love and letting go is just too inspirational!

"But I'll DEFINITELY come back for you later if ever your heart's still not taken by then so you're not completely off the hook just yet." He pinched my cheek.

So what exactly is the point of his letting go speech?

Before I knew it, he kissed two of his fingers then placed it over my lips like an indirect kiss which shocked me.

"Be careful of Harry and Zayn, okay? They're quite aggressive, I should know because I see myself in them. Liam is the mother figure so don't pay any attention to his constant nagging and Niall's an okay guy I guess but his weak point is being way too nice... and as for Louis, I can see the chemistry on you two but I'm not sure as to what I would feel if ever you become my sister-in-law so yeah... take care of yourself and don't take it out too hard on Louis for he's secretly a crybaby." He smiled.

It's like he's indirectly saying that he's the only option left worth pursuing...

And did he just give me some love advice?

"Oh, and don't tell him I just told you that." He whispered on my ear.