Mama

Chapter Three

June 2001:

My appointment to see my doctor passed, and all Dr. Jackie said was to remain stress-free, and to stay in bed. I hate the fact that I cannot go out with my sisters, or go to little events in Hollywood.

I was in bed watching "Baby Boy", which caused me to cry. The scene were Jody slapped Yvette by accident, made me fill with anger.

"I hate you, Jody!" I screamed at the television. All these mood swings, annoy me and I cannot do anything to prevent them. I received a call from Tamar, who rarely calls.

"Hello?" I said. I could tell something was wrong.

"Hey Toni, it's me..Tamar." She said, sniffling.

"What's the matter?" I asked, on the edge of the bed. I hate to see or hear my family hurt.

"I lost my daughter, Toni. I lost my child. I can't--cant bring her back. Why did this happen to me?" Tamar said, while hysterically crying.

"I'm so sorry, Tamar." I said. I couldn't form a meaningful apology in my mind; I was in total shock. First off, Tamar never expressed to us, that she wants to be a mother.

"Toni, why me?" Tamar asked. I couldn't answer her question, but I knew that I could be the encouraging and loving big sister, that I usually am.

"Tamar, don't question God's plans or doings. Everything happens for a reason, and this is a sign. God gives the biggest battles to his strongest soldiers." I said. I could hear Keri calling my name.

"Thanks Toni, I love you..so much." Tamar said. I could tell that she felt a little better than three minutes ago.

"I love you so much more." I said, smiling on the phone. I really love my baby sister, even though she's a handful.

"I gotta go now. I'll speak to you later, okay?" I said.

"Alright, bye." Tamar sad, hanging up the phone. Keri jumped on the bed, and kissed me all over my face.

"What?!" I questioned. He pressed some button on his phone, and a voicemail message came on.

"Hey Keri, this is Rodney Jerkins. A lot of people were asking me about Mint Condition, and when's the reunion, so it's official. Starting August 29th through October 8th, there will be a tour, reuniting the original band. See you soon, later."

"Congratulations, I'm so happy." I smiled. The tour is going to be during my birthday, and I don't want to be alone.

"I'm sorry." Keri said. He knew that something was wrong with me. I really wanted to cry because it's my first birthday, being married and pregnant.

"It's fine, just come home back to me, in one piece." I said. He nodded his head kissing my cheek. He also kissed my stomach, which caused the baby to kick.

"You made the baby kick, for the first time." I smiled. He continued to kiss my stomach, to the point where the baby was having a soccer game, inside of me.

"I love you, son." Keri said, rubbing my stomach.