Chapter 7

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I had no idea where I was or what was going on, all I was certain of was the pain in my head. I tried to open my eyes but when I did, the light attacked and I was forced to close them again. I tried a few more times before my vision finally returned.

I looked around and saw that I was outside, on the side of the road. I placed a hand on the back of my head where I had been hit but when I brought it back, it was clean. If I had bled, it was either dried or cleaned. I was terrified because I had no idea where I was or if I was even alone. I needed to get back to Ragnar but I had no idea where to start. I didn't know if I should stay or move on somewhere.

"And to think I thought you'd stay away." I turned quickly and suddenly regretted it. My head began to spin and wondered if I had another concussion. I remember the one I had when we ran from Lucian so I'm pretty sure I have one now.

Once my head stilled, I looked towards the voice that I knew all too well. My vision zeroed in on the once Delfunie man that fathered my son.

"Lucian." I made sure to fill my voice with venom, my hatred to radiate from my body for him to feel. He seemed unamused. He looked just as savage as he ever did. I couldn't lie to myself, he was a handsome man. He had slicked back brown hair and blues eyes just like mine. He no longer had the Delfunie traits that once frightened me.

"He is safe, Mavis. You need to leave this alone. Go back home and make a life with my brother. Have more children." He sounded so caring, sincere, like he actually cared about me. I knew better though. I knew that he was cold and heartless. He doesn't care about me, only what he wanted.

"I can't have children, Lucian. You have all my medical files, you know that. I got lucky with Daisy and you had a doctor to help with Jax. I can't get pregnant. Why can you not just give me Jax? You know things now. You can have more children, Lucian. Just give me my son." He looked more angered with every word I said but I wasn't backing down.

"You weren't able to have children. It wasn't a miracle that you conceived Jax and it wasn't just because the doctor helped, he fixed you." I had no idea what he was talking about. He was making absolutely no sense.

"He fixed me? What the hell does that even mean?" I asked, annoyance clear in my voice. He looked down at the ground and pinched the bridge of his nose, closing his eyes. It brought me some joy to see him frustrated. He could no longer control me and I think he knows that.

"You can have all the children you want, just leave Jax alone. You don't have any reason to come after him now." He explained, getting louder with each word, almost like he was trying to warn me.

"I don't have a...he's my son, Lucian. I have every reason to come after him. I love him and I want him back. You people don't love him, you just want him for what he can do for you, what ever that is." Lucian started to do something strange then. He started looking around and us before taking a few steps towards me, causing me to take a few back away from him. He seemed different now but I still did not trust him.

"Mavis, please. I am telling you. You need to walk away from this. Ross may have been your friend once but now all he cares about is Jax, he no longer needs you. He will kill you." I was shocked by his confession, and his manners. He never said please before, not that I can remember anyway. Why does he care now? Why does he care if I die?

"Lucian, I don't...why are you doing this? You've always hated me. Why are you talking like this? You don't care if I live or die, you've threatened me so many times before. Why are you saying these things?" I've never seen Lucian this way, human. almost vulnerable.

"I may have acted that way towards you but I never meant any ill will to you or my brother. Who I've noticed you've married. Mavis..."

"You meant no ill will? You threw me down stairs, you stabbed Ragnar! You tried to kill us and sent your other brother to do the job. He had a gun to my head, I was stabbed myself because of him. Tell me again how you meant no ill will." I yelled at him, taking the steps forward to where I'm right in front of him. He didn't back down but neither did I, I am no longer afraid of him. Not anymore.

"I admit regrettably, things did get extremely out of hand but I was supposed to keep you in the house, you were never supposed to leave."

"I saw the letter, Lucian. You choose to treat me this way, no one made you do it. I'm not an idiot, please don't treat me like one."

"What letter?" He looked genially confused.

"Lucian, the letter. There was a letter in the file with Jax's birth certificate and my medical records.  I read it, it stated that I was to die before his first birthday if you didn't get me under control. It was supposed to be sent to the doctor. The letter."

"Mavis, I have no idea what you're talking about. Yes, I said that you were to die before his birthday but I would have never been the one to do it. I never would. Mavis, you have to believe me. I know nothing of this letter." He looked like he was telling the truth but I could never tell with him. Why was he doing this.

"Lucian, why are you doing this? Why did you take me from Ragnar?" I crossed my arms over my chest and waited for an explanation. He still hasn't even really given me one.

"I know how you feel about Jax. You are his mother and I completely understand that you want him back but you have to understand he was never yours. He was always meant to go to Ross and you were either supposed to die or go back to your life. I was surprised that the doctor was able to save you, he wasn't supposed to. But he did and we have to live with that now. Mavis, Ross will kill you if you try and take the baby back." It was starting to dawn on me. I stood up straight as the realization started to make its way through my body.

"You love Jax." I said quietly. "You don't want him with Ross any more than Ragnar or I do. I can't believe it. You actually want to be his father." Lucian suddenly dropped his arms and turned away from me. He walked a good distance away from me and then turned back to look at me, his face in his hands.

"Mavis, I...I can't do this. I am not going to do this with you now, I just need you to go back to Ragnar and go home. Go be with his kids and raise a family without Jax. I understand how hard that is, trust me I know, but it does get easier. Once you realize he was never ours, it gets easier." He wanted Jax back too.

I started walking down the road. The sun was out and it was almost right above us which told me it was around noon. So either we are not that far from where the guys are or we've been gone for at least a day. Lucian was suddenly at my side and we were walking in silence. We weren't walking fast but it was almost nice to see this side of Lucian. It was a good change.

"When was the last time you saw him?" I asked after about five minutes of silence. He took a minute to answer me.

"The last time I saw him was the last time you saw him. That day by the lake. Ross won't let me see him and I have no idea where they are. I stopped looking after a while. Look I know how I've treated you and I know Ragnar told you about my past but I honestly love our son and I want him away from Ross just as much as you do but it's just not a real possibility. I'm sorry, Mavis."

"We're not giving up until Jax is in my arms, Lucian. I just can't let him go. I promise you I will get him back." That's when I made a decision that I probably shouldn't have made. I didn't something Ragnar may hate me for for a long time. "We know where he is, Lucian. Ragnar and I are on our way to take him back and raise him ourselves."

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