Listen~ CaptainSwan AU

Chapter 15: Visit

I hope you guys don't hate me too much at this point... hehe...

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Emma's P.O.V:

A whole month has gone by and I've never been more miserable. I see Molly every day at school, and when I'm with Regina, and she seems to miss her father just as much as I do. She's staying with her grandparents, but without a mother, she hasn't got the one thing she needs- a parent. She's a constant reminder of Killian, and while I love her like a daughter, I wish she didn't look so much like her dad. It hurts so much.

Killian leaves me voice messages every day, but I never listen, too afraid of what they'll say. He calls even though he knows I won't be there to answer. That I'll ignore his call. I dare to let myself hope he still loves me because of that persistence. The persistence to call with the knowledge that I won't answer.

Ruby and have reconciled. I missed having her around, and she apologized a thousand times. I only wish she had explained things to me sooner... I smile, remembering the moment we made up.

"Emma please, please just let me explain something, please?" Ruby pleads as I rush down the halls of the school to get to my class.

"Ruby we both have classes to teach right now, I have mine and you have your gym class," I say, shrugging her off.

"Emma, Emma wait up, please!" Ruby calls, running to stand in front of me. I raise an eyebrow, crossing my arms.

"I get it, I was way out of line, I had no right to say anything that I did, and I can't tell you how sorry I am. But I can't go back in time and change it either. I miss you, Emma, I miss being able to talk to you, I miss having someone to rely on, and I'll do anything to win your trust again," Ruby begs.

"Just tell me why," I say quietly.

"Why what?" she whispers.

"Why did you say all those... horrible things?" I ask her, swallowing down the memories.

"It's... complicated."

"Try me," I insist.

"I don't want you to pity me," Ruby mumbles. "I don't want you to see me differently."

"You know I'm a real person. I don't pretend around people and I don't pity. You can tell me," I say encouragingly. She hesitates, taking a deep breath.

"Okay... fine. I have Aspergers," she blurts out. I close my eyes in understanding.

So that's why she can never keep her thoughts to herself, she has a fucking mental disorder.

"Was that so hard?" I ask with a soft smile.

"Can you forgive me for what I did?" She whispers.

"Yes, yes I can," I answer with a smile, pulling her into a comforting hug. "And if it makes you feel any better, I've missed talking to you too."

Making up with Ruby was probably one of the best decisions I made over the month Killian has been away. But the worst one was letting him go in the first place.

"Emma you have to stop torturing yourself. The whole time I've known you I have never seen you this miserable," Regina tells me as we eat our lunch at Grannies, Saturday afternoon. I swallow an onion ring and look up at her.

"What am I supposed to do? We both screwed up. We haven't spoken in a month. He's doing this whole damn tour and won't be back until early July, what do you expect me to do other than sit here and wait for the man I love to realize just that? Or that I just want him here?!" I say, shoving another onion ring into my mouth.