Falling for Jackson Wang | MARKSON

Chapter 27 | Sorry

If any of you haven't noticed, Mark tends to talk to himself a lot, hence the italics and normal print*
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I'm extremely excited and nervous at the same time.

Excited because it's 1 day until my 6 months. 1 day until I can let the bet go. 1 day and the pain will be over.

Nervous because today I'm going to eat lunch with BTS for the first time in around a month, and Jackson doesn't know about it.

I've decided I'm going to make things better, for me. I'm not going to let Jackson control me.

Not anymore.

"Mark, mum's on the phone." Dad stated, restraining himself from entering my room.
"Oh okay. You can come in!" I called, sitting at my desk and sliding my socks onto my feet.
He carefully entered, gave me the phone and fled.

*^Why is he acting strange?

Oh right. Yesterday.

And the week before that.

Shut up Mark.

Make me.

"Hello?" I asked, trying to shake the horrible memories out of my head.
"Mark! How's my baby going? I haven't heard your voice in ages. Oh I miss you so much. Why didn't you call? Why haven't you spoken to me? Are you doing something bad? You know you can tell me if-"
"Calm down, I'm fine! I know, I'm sorry." I laughed, staring at my untied shoe laces resting on the floor beside my shoes.
"How are you going? Is Jackson treating you okay?" She asked, her voice lowering an octave.

I should have told her, about everything.

But I didn't.

"Jackson is great, mum, he really is. I'm good... actually, I have to get to school soon though."
"Oh. Yes. Sorry about that, but I hope you're settled in, you have another 6 months over there- but I want you to know you can come home whenever you want...just not straight away. We don't have the money-" She sighed, traces of sadness evident in her words.
"I know, and I understand. But thank you."
"I just want you to be happy, Mark." Mum admitted.
"Don't worry about me. I'm the happiest I've ever been."

Lie.

"Okay, good. I'm glad you're okay." She laughed, trying to brighten the mood.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, I haven't seen any of your friends lately, but I guess they're all busy with school."
"Yeah, I think Shownu wants to be a doctor so he'll be busy, Hyungwon wants to be a teacher because he's really good with kids so he's busy too, Wonho has no idea... he probably wants to make 'Ramen' noodles for the rest of his life so he should be free. Minhyuk wants to be a TV show host so he shouldn't be too busy- sorry... I'm rambling." I laughed. trying to cover the excruciating pain I felt in my heart.

I miss them so much.

"...Changkyun and Kihyun don't know either, just like Wonho. Jooheon wants to travel before he does anything else. I remember you telling me." She giggled, and somehow, I felt more pain than I had, just then.
"Sorry."
"It's cute how you remember, they were your first real friends... well, group of friends anyway. I'm so proud how you've kept them for so many years-"
"Yeah, it is shocking." I agreed, even though I basically destroyed that ship a long time ago.
"I better let you go. Look after your father, and yourself. I love you."
"I love you too, mum." I smiled, waiting until I heard the faint beep of the line being cut.