We're Brøken Peøple(Completed)

{Chapter Twelve}

{Chapter Twelve|-/Josh Dun}

"What do you mean what threw up in my hair?" I asked. Oh how I've missed her. She smiled at me and ran to give me a hug. I knew something was off by the way she awkwardly pulled away. I just wasn't sure what.

I continued inspecting her as she walked back over to Brendon. Her eyes were red and puffy which means she's been crying. Her hands seemed to shake..really her entire body was shaking and she couldn't seem to stop. She never made eye contact with anyone in the room and she seemed to be trying to avoid both Taylor and Tyler as much as possible.

Weird.

"Addy? Can I talk to you?" I asked. She nodded and followed me out into the hall.

"You okay?" I asked carefully. She immediately looked down and nodded.

"You're lying." She shook her head no.

"Where's Robin?"

"The bus. I don't need her besides when it's dark." She said, still not looking at me.

"Please tell me what's going on. I can't go through this again." I pleaded.

"Promise not to say a word to anyone Josh. Please." She said, her voice cracking. I nodded and linked my pinky with her's.

"I..I think I'm pregnant."

...

"Josh?" A small voice said. I turned to find Adeline looking at me.

"Yeah?"

"Are you mad at me? Please don't be mad..I'm sorry." She said, tears welling up in her eyes.

"I can't be the one to tell Tyler, Adeline. I can't crush him like that. If you want what's best friend for him, you'll keep quiet and leave him alone." I said, turning to face her properly.

"Josh please. I want my best friends back."

"Do you not get that he loves you Adeline?" I yelled.

"I'll tell him." She said and turned away.

"That's a stupid choice." I mumbled but let her go.

I began my walk to the bus once again. I needed some alone time. Time to think.

{Tyler Joseph}

"Tyler can we talk?"

"I sure, Adeline." I said, not looking up from my phone. She sat next to me but didn't relax from a stiff position. She seemed uncomfortable and awkward. I would ask what was going on but I knew I'd probably get my answer if I kept quiet.

"Tyler..first I want to say that I care a lot about you and I want you in my life but I understand if you don't want to be after what I tell you. I know that we've been through some hard times but you're still my best friend and I wouldn't be telling you this myself if I didn't care about you."

Oh no.

"I don't want you to do anything stupid and I don't want to lose you. But again like I said, you can choose to walk away. I'll understand."

Please no.

"Tyler..." I gulped and braced myself for what she was about to say even though I was 99.995368% sure I knew what it was.

"Tyler..I think I'm pregnant."

And there it was.

I felt the blood drain from my face and my eyes fell to her stomach. I didn't know how to feel.

Am I supposed to be happy? Or upset? Hurt? Betrayed? Nothing?

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

I had nothing to say.

The girl I love is knocked up by someone other than me.

And I can't do anything about it.

"Ty? Please say something.." she begged.

"I have nothing to say." I said. My voice was calm, the exact opposite of what I felt on the inside. How do you explain something like this to someone?

"Tyler I'm sorry.."

"You're not though. It wouldn't have happened if you were sorry." I said, my voice staying calmly cold. I have nothing to say to her.

She began crying and I let her, not moving.

I lost.

Game over.

...

"Have you ever been hurt my someone? Have you ever hurt so bad that you feel absolutely nothing? Have you ever just wanted to isolate yourself and never come out? Have you ever hated everything about yourself that you can't even stand your own presence around? Have you ever realized that you lost and there's nothing you can do? There was no reason for this little rant so here's Migraine."

After the show, I went and locked myself in the back of the bus, choosing to stay away from everyone. I knew there'd be questions about my speech and right now, I really didn't want to hear it.

"Tyler I know you're upset with me. I know that. I understand why. I just really need you to hear me out." The pleading in her voice forced me to listen no matter how much I really didn't want to.

"I did it because I was hurting. I missed you but you didn't want me around. I wanted to forget. I didn't want this to happen. I thought that it would be a one time thing..no consequences. An experiment. Something that I could walk away from. But I can't. And I know that and I hate myself for it and I understand you hate me too." I didn't hear anything else for a while and I was pretty sure she had left. I finally let out a breath.

"I love you Ty. I can't do this alone."

I heard sobs on the other side of the door and it took everything thing I had not to run over and comfort her.

She deserves this.

Game over.

The voice continues to say those two words, like I'd forget.

I know it's over. I know that my chance is dead and gone and I hate myself for letting it happen and I hate her for letting herself do this.

You deserve it.

Why do I have to be in so much pain all the time?

You deserve it.

Why do I have to have such a terrible life?

You deserve it.

I'm so tired of this.

I want it to end.

You're a hypocrite.

I don't want it to end. I want you to end.