My life would suck without you

Feeling low and numb

Alex decided to walk home after school. She didn't feel like riding the bus. She even went home a little earlier than usual.

She shoved her hand in her messenger bag and pulled out a little bottle. She opened it and started to chug it down. She'd be sure to open more when she got home. Her mother had a stash that she never kept track of. But it didn't matter if she got caught, she didn't care if she got in trouble at this point.

"God that's good!" Alex stopped walking and looked up at the sky. "God. Do you even exist? Why are you making me go throuGH THIS!" Alex screamed the last part as she threw the little glass bottle at a brick wall, watching the glass shards fall on the concrete. She started to feel dizzy. "Why am I such a lightweight today!" She said before she began making her way to her house. "Fuck my life!" she sang as she fished for her keys in her pocket, unlocking the front door.

She went upstairs and made her way to her room, heading straight for the papers in her desk drawer, that she still had to sign.

Her mother already signed off everything she needed. She just held off on signing the rest because... Well because of Maggie. Not that that matters now. She opened the folder and started going through the forms.

"Any spouse? Huh no!" She checks the no box. "Are you pregnant? What the hell kind of question is that?" Alex laughed as she checked the no box. "Do not want children. No thanks!" She filled out the rest of the information and then threw the folder down on top her desk.

She fell back onto her bed, grunting as she hit the mattress. She felt agitated all of a sudden, so she got up and pulled her sheets and blankets off her bed. "It smells to much like her in here!" She gathered it all up and made her way to the bathroom, throwing the blankets in the washer.

She went back to her room and sighed as she looked around. "I want another drink." Then she was off down the stairs, to grab a few more bottles of random alcohol to drink.

"Its a good thing I'm alone! And no one can hear me yell!" She shouted through the house, to release her anger. She unlocked the cupboard with her mothers hidden key and took out the majority of the stash. She chugged bottle after bottle, finishing them, immediately feeling the affects of the alcohol.
And by some dumb reason she decided to go outside. Not before grabbing a bottle of beer from the fridge.

She walked out the back door and sat down by the pool.

It was always so sunny in Midvale. Except for the first week of school when it rained. The whole summer was terrible, to say the least. Her and Vasquez began to drift apart, she ended up quitting her job by the end of July and Lucy and James started fighting.

Its all really stupid now. When she thought about all the things that has happened to her recently.

She got lost in her thoughts, not realizing how much of the beer she had drank. The bottle was already empty.

She looked in the bottle. As if there'd magically be more in there. "Great." She held her arm back and chucked the bottle at the wooden fence, in her backyard. It shattered on impact.

"What's wrong with me." She lowered her head, then covered her face with her hands. She stayed like that for a few minutes. Enjoying the peace and quiet. Before her phone started going off, ruining her vibe. Alex jumped at the sudden interruption and moved her hands away from her face. Frantically reaching for her phone. She looked at the screen to see that it was Kara.

"Hey. Kar."

"Alex! Im sorry to bug you. You're probably hanging out with Maggie right now, but Mike couldn't make it to practice and I really need a ride!"