Falling For You Again | cth (Slow updates)

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viii | What a Mess

Walking up the stairs was completely uncomfortable with the fluffy skirt on, I was cautious of how it just ruffled every time I moved, I thought it would flow upwards at some point. Then again, I let Nirvana decide on my costume and she decided on a sexy maid costume. A fluffy black skirt with a black tank top that made my boobs go 'pop' and an apron around the waist. And while I was wearing this, Nirvana was wearing a leopard costume and Angelina was wearing a witch costume. Not to mention, both were very sexy. I could have gone with Estrella to the studio, but noo, I had to be here.

I could already feel the lustful lingering eyes following our every move. Walking past the girls, I go into the kitchen, yelling over the music, "Come on let's get this over with, I just want to drink,"

"Cassidy, no," Angelina tells me from behind me, "Drinking won't fix whatever you're going through."

I ignore her as I prepared myself a shot and took a sip of it. My neck burns as I turn around to face the two girls while preparing another shot, "I need to forget about Wesley being a jackass."

 Before I could even take another shot, Angelina takes it away from me and hands it to some random people who gladly took it from her grip. I pout as Nirvana takes the bottle away from me.

"You are not drinking," Nirvana steps in, she walks over to me with a water bottle in her hand," I don't care if you are an adult already, you are not going to drink ."

Groaning, I grab the bottle from her grasp and walked towards the backyard. We continued to converse with many different people, eventually, at some point, Angelina begged me to introduce her to Ashley and Matthew, as she is a fan of Hasley and Blackbear-- typical fangirl. Although, I did get to enjoy a stunned Angelina, making a complete fool of herself.

As the six of us talked, a quick tap on my shoulder catches my attention. Turning around, I met with those familiar blue eyes. He leans in lightly, "Can I talk to you?" 

I look back at the girls, I quickly motioned them I would be back before I turned around and jerked outwards, letting him guide the way. I followed behind him as we walked to the other side of the yard. I end up seeing his girlfriend, Addison, and the others with Calum going towards Ashley and the others. I catch Addison giving flirtatious looks to Matthew.

Luke leads me to a small patio that was now deserted, walking over, I flop onto the couches as Luke slowly sits down. I quickly switched my gaze onto the moon, unsure of what to do, "What?"

"Why are you ignoring us?" Asked Luke.

"Jeez, I don't know. It's been like almost three years since you guys stopped talking to me. None of you sent me texts or never called me. And every time I tried to reach out for you guys, all of you would ignore me."

Glancing over, I could tell Luke seemed like he barely realized what he and the boys had done after my graduation, and looked guilty. Ruffling the back of his hair that seems to be growing a little while nibbling on his lower lip. 

"Look, just give all of us a chance. I know we fucked up a lot after these last three years but please."

"Luke, something like this can't be fixed so easily-"

"How about all of us ditch this place and talk everything?" He suggested.

Before I can reply 'no', he decided that's what we are going to do and rushes to tell the others. I groaned loudly, punching the air before I get up and follow him. As I searched for the girls, I watch Luke as he tells the others and Angelina seems clearly piss by something. Then, they all walk towards me, leaving Crystal and Addison behind.

"I pack clothes in the car, so let's go," Nirvana tells me, grabbing my hand.

"Do we have a say in this, Vanessa?" Angelina asked Nirvana as we exited the house.

"No, all of you need to fix this issue," Nirvana simply said to us.

We get to the car and we all changed individually in the car. As I changed in the car, I heard the girls exchanged a few words with them. Hitting the roof as a sign I was done changing, the girls returned, entering into the car sitting in the front.

"Where are we going?"

"25 Degree."

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"I could always stay in the car."

"No, we're going in and you two will talk to these dudes."

Groaning, I lean my head against the window, "You're acting exactly like Estrella."

"Because she would do the same thing if she was here," Nirvana tells me, turning onto a familiar street, "Look you can forgive them, but it does not mean you have to be friends. You're still healing, Cass."

"And me."

"No, you're still going through shit, you're not acknowledging the hate and jealously."

"W-What?! No, I'm healing!"

"Thank God, I'm not the only one noticing," I sighed, smirking as Angelina groaned silently to herself.

After finding a parking spot, we had arrived a tad earlier than them so we had entered the dining to get a table for all of us. Entering the restaurant, the familiar scent fills my nostrils and my eardrums were filled by the music as always, we greeted the employees, I turned to the left as I always do to get the table we had always take.

As I reached closer to the other end of the dining, I noticed it was already taken, but I halted my steps as my heart as I recognized the two figures sitting in the same booth all of us had sat. One arm wrapped around her shoulder, corner of their foreheads leaned against each other as they stared at each other, both of their free hands held each other. 

Within seconds, my vision became blurry, but my focus on them was not blurred, it was clear. My hearing muffled, I could the bell rang by the entrance, someone or a group entered and someone had called out my name. It sounded so muffled and echoey. My body begins to move on its own, my head screamed 'leave', but my heart cried, twisting at the sight of them kissing. My body continued to walk to the tabled with balled-up fists before I slammed my palms on the cold surface of the table once I reached the booth.

The slam of my palms returned me to my sense. I could feel the tears streaming down my face, I could feel the extreme lump in my throat, the tingling sensation in my palms from slamming it on the table, my sore feet from walking on the heel, the tight feeling in my chest, and the twisting feeling in my stomach. 

The couple jumped from the sudden movement I made, both with horror on their faces. She removed her hands away from his, placing them on the sight, and looked down on her lap; meanwhile, he hung his mouth wide open, flickering eyes as he looked at my face. 

I wished or had hoped at that moment was some kind of joke like April's Fool, but that wasn't the case. It was almost the end of October and this is reality.

"It's not what it looks like, Cassidy."

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A/n heloooo

it's nearly one in the morning, on easter/spring break, I plan on watching Jujutsu kaisen since attack on titan: final season has ended (sadly have to wait for a pt.2 by winter 2022)

hope you like the update

I hope to post every Wednesday, which may or may not happen. might post randomly.

well then, see you suddenly!