After years, Cassidy has everything she wanted. She hasn't spoken to the boys since she graduated from high school. Just when she's finally moved from her past, the past decided to reappear in front of her, she finally faces those boys, who are now...
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i | 8 years
Looking back from years ago, I never looked forward to anything, everything was a drag, even waking up. I had nothing and was allowing myself to crawl into a very scary dark hole. I stopped searching for that light at the end of the hole and without thinking about it, my life started to change slowly. It was scary at first, my life was changing increasingly, and I was scared of it.
Change was always something I was afraid of, it always felt like time passed too fast and you're worried about the time or not wanting to grow up and staying young forever. However, that's the part of growing up, allowing any kind of change into your life is a blessing and learning, but there's always going to be something that you regret not changing, and like before, change is scary.
You will never know what will happen when you make a decision, will it be beneficial? Would I regret it? That's what happened to me, losing four amazing people in my life. They took a piece of me when they left and after a while, they contacted me after I had graduated high school. They did, but not him, he never spoke to me. No calls. No messages. It was like he forgot about me like I never existed. It was like he finally moved on from me like I moved on from him. Within time, they started distancing, one by one, little by little.
"You're up in a minute," A staff informed me as the stylists do last minute touches on me.
"Thank you," I said before I look at myself in the mirror.
I was standing in the middle of Ellen Degeneres' backstage, waiting for her to introduce me. I had worn average clothing, not wanting to go overboard, but Jane and Tita kept on insisting as I kept on refusing. I play with the ends of my hair since Tita will whine, claiming if I had played with my shoulder-length straighten hair, I will only make it look messy.
The same staff comes back, escorting me to an entrance, waiting for Ellen to introduce me, I quickly turn around when Jane and Tita cheer for me on the side, trying to help ease my nervousness. After Ellen cracks some jokes, she starts off her introduction and introduces me, the big blue walls slide open, the lights quickly shine on me, the audience applauded and cheer as I walk towards Ellen, hugging her before we walk to the chairs.
"So, you just finished your tour Flying Home," said Ellen," how was it?"
"Oh my gosh, it was such an amazing experience," I answer her, "I didn't know that I had so many fans around the world!"
She continues asking me about the tour and then what started my passion for singing. It was fun and engaging, she's a good host and luckily I was not caught in her favorite scare pranks, I would have probably screamed and fall to the floor.
"So, I have a question," Ellen told me," Is it true that you are dating Calum Hood from 5 Seconds Of Summer?"
I gave her a questioning look. It's been a while since this question was asked, I think the last time it was asked was in my senior year. "How is that even possible? The last time I saw him was almost eight years ago."
