The Demons In My Head

Chapter 12

"This is fucking ridiculous!" Nareesha shouts, throwing her hands up in the air in annoyance.

We've been home for awhile now, maybe two or three days, and the news that 'girls aren't allowed' has passed to both. Kelsey and. Nareesha.

We stand in Nano's office, modern furniture and decoratives surrounding us. Lime greens and blacks and white surround the walls, blending in with the black leather sofas, and a class table in the middle of the room.

"Nareesha, please calm down," says Nano, a look of seriousness and annoyance on his face. "Nothing about our plan is going to change. Scooter gave orders, and we agreed to them."

"We? You and Paul you mean...you didn't run anything by the boys. You didn't give them a warning or anything," Kelsey adds, anger building up inside of her.

We showed up at Nano's office without the boys, not wanting them to get involved with the drama. Besides, they are not on speaking terms, but then again, none of us really were.

"Did it ever consider to you that maybe the boys want us to come with them? That they'll be happier, and will have more fun?" I ask, clenching my fists between my knees. I was so pissed, I could punch him.

"It would be easier on the fans knowing that you weren't there to stop them from meeting the boys," nano says.

All three of us glare at Nano from across the glass table. "Are you fucking kidding me? You think we would stop the fans from meeting them? Do you know us at all?"

"It's not like we'll be with them 24/7, we want to be there to support them. Nano, it's eight months. Eight months is along time for people in a relationship. Nathan and Taylor are still growing there's, has it ever considered to you this will cause problems?" Nareesha says, gesturing to me.

Nano's eyes flicker to me before looking down at his hands. "Not my problem, why don't you just break up and get back together for all I care."

Wow, he is a bigger dick wipe than Scooter himself. I gave him a look of death before standing up, placing my palms on the table I'm front of me. "You're such a dick," I sneer. I reach over before smacking his face, the contact of his skin stinging against mine. I ignore the gasps of shock behind me as I turn towards the door, slamming it as hard as possible.

I walk back in the rain of London, blending in with my tears of anger, shock and sadness. Did Nano just say those things to me? Did he even understand what I felt for Nathan? Or does he think it's a publicity stunt....that bastard.

I walk into the house, slamming the door, causing five heads to snap up and stare at me in fright. "Whoa, you look like you just committed a murder," laughs Jay, his curls bouncing with the movement of his shoulders.

"God I wish, and you know who would be my victim? Your dick of a boss Nano," I curse, sliding my boots and jacket off, making my way to the kitchen. I make myself an alcoholic beverage, needing the alcohol to relieve my stress. I ignore the confused and shocked looks as I pour myself a glass of Vodka and Cranberry Juice. I walk over to the couch, leaning against Nathan's shoulder as I sip my mostly vodka drink. I look down, ashamed as I say the next words. "I slapped your boss..."

"Whoa. You slapped Nano? Love, that's not good..." Tom begins, leaning forward, resting his elbows on the coffee table.

"Gee, thanks captain obvious..." I roll my eyes, taking a bigger gulp of my drink.

"The real question is why you slapped him," Siva says, arching his eyebrow as he rests his chin in the palm of his hand.

I look down, then up at Nathan, feeling my heart break into a million pieces. "He said Nathan and I should break up..."

Silence, that's almost worse than yelling. You can practically hear the blood flowing through everyone's veins. "Nano told you you should break up?" Max repeats.

"He said, 'maybe you guys should just break up'," I quote, mocking his annoying monotone American accent.

"I would've slapped him too," Tom says, obviously thinking about Kelsey. "Want us to fire him?"

I laugh, honestly considering it for a moment. "No it's okay, I'll kill him." I take another sip, feeling Nathan's hands intertwine through the one resting on my thigh.

I look at our joined hands, feeling even worse about myself. I didn't want to break up with him, I didn't even want to think about it, but I am worried that the distance will do it for us.

I feel his lips kiss my hair, his breath tickling the loose ones around my face. I lean back, resting my head under his chin. "I wish I was there," he sighs.

"No, I wouldn't have hit him if you were there, and I kinda liked it," I smirk, feeling Nathan smile against my forehead.

"Do you want us to talk to him?" Jay asks, lacing his fingers together in front of him.

"No, I don't want you guys getting involved. That's why I didn't ask you to come in the first place," as much as I hated saying it, I have to do this alone. I brought it on myself, I have to fix whatever I started.

I set my drink on the table, leaning back against Nathan's lap. I smile as his hands play with my hair, but feeling sad as I know in a few months, we won't have that.

I hadn't notice the other boys leave, probably in their rooms cursing and hexing me. I slapped their boss, that can't be good.

I sigh, closing my eyes. "Are you mad at me?"

"No, I'm actually kind of turned on, you slapping Nano, I wish I would've seen it for myself," he snickers, still playing with my hair.

I charlie-horse his thigh, making him curse under his breath. "You're feisty today," he says, rubbing the sore spot on his arm.

"Well I was just told to break up with my boyfriend, I'm not exactly happy today."

Nathan leans forward, brushing his soft lips down my jaw, leaving goosebumps where they made contact with my sensitive skin. "I'm not going to break up with you, we'll figure it out. I promise."

I wanted to believe it, but deep down inside, I didn't.