Crazy Coward Hearts : An AlyDen Love Tale

Chapter 3

Alyssa's POV

Before I could even fully open the door, this kid just runs to me and hugs me. Di ko alam kung anong gagawin ko lumingon ako kay Stella,  ( Oo Stella, first name ng mommy ko, hindi ko pa kayang tawagin siya na mommy knowing that I never felt that she was one to me) I looked back down at the kid, before I knew it the man behind him already "removed" him from me.

STELLA: Aly, I know that being here is against your will, but since you're here anyway... Alyssa I want you to meet your new family, this is your Papa Bernard your step dad, and this is Riley your brother...

I was stunned , this is too much for me to take in just one day, gusto kong magalit, at tumakbo palabas , now I know why I grew up without a mom, she was too busy being a wife and a mother to someone else and I was after all just her "mistake"

ALY: I'm tired, where's my bedroom

I coldly stated, I didn't know how long I could still hold myself up, I knew I was about to break down any minute..

STELLA: It's upstairs ,down the hall last room on the right..

i could feel the sadness in her voice, but i didn't care .Dali dali akong tumakbo pataas, hindi ko na pinansin si Bernard at Riley ayaw kong madamay pa sila kung sakali mang di ko makontrol ang emosyon ko.

(Lunchtime...)

STELLA: Aly? Baby,please open the door, you haven't eaten anything,

ALY: Go away! I don't want you here

Wala akong nagawa,she had a key kaya nagawa niyang buksan ang pinto ko at isa sa pinaka ayaw kong ginagawa ng tao ay ang biglang pag-evade sa private space ko, kaya sa sobrang pagka-irita ko... it was then that I just snapped..

STELLA: Aly , please eat with us, nagluto ako ng paborito mo, adobong manok remember? besides Riley really wants to meet you and...

Hindi ko na siya pina tapos magsalita, I was too tired, too emotional, and I just couldn't think right at the moment

ALY: Stella, please stop, just stop pretending that you and I are ever gonna have a chance again,I'm 16 already and you're just too late, 11 years too late,no matter how hard you try we can never ever have a normal mother daughter relationship, sobrang sakit na malaman na mismong nanay mo sinukuan ka,mismong nanay mo piniling talikuran ka , I was 5 years old Stella, I was just as old as Riley, pero you made me feel like you never really wanted me, like I was never your daughter, tapos suddenly after 11 years babalik ka, sapilitan mo akong kukunin sa dad ko, kaya lang ako nandito para sa daddy ko, ayaw ko siyang masampahan ng kaso, you know what Stella, you're too selfish, hinayaan mo na sana ako na kasama ang dad ko, hindi yung ganito , yung iuuwi mo ko dito tapos ipapa-mukha mo na masaya ka, na may pamilya ka, na maayos yung buhay mo, na kompleto ka kahit wala ako,You are already so freakin happy with your family , while me, I grew up thinking there was something wrong with me, lumaki ako na akala o may kulang sa akin na may mali sa akin kasi iniwan ako ng nanay ko . Stella I am not the same kid that you left crying at the gate, that kid was gone , long gone, I am a different person and you know nothing about me and the hell that I went through, alam kong ikaw ang nagluwal sa akin dito sa mundo but you're not my mother, you never we're. I can't trust you, and I can't allow you to break me again..... and by the way just so you know, I'm allergic to chicken

Sinabi ko lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kanya mula ng tumapak ang paa ko dito sa Pilipinas, hindi pasigaw pero bawat salitang binitiwan ko ay sinigurado kong may diin . I closed the door, locked it at hinarangan ko pa to ng study table para lang di siya maka pasok, she was saying something but I wasn't in the mood to listen, I will never be in the mood.I was drained and tired, I wanted to yell, I missed my dad, I wanted to go home, magulo yung isipan ko kasing gulo ng buhay ko, for a 16 year old kid, I was going through soo much... with soo many thoughts running through my head I felt like drifting to sleep was the only solution I can temporarily escape this whirlwind that I'm in..