Manan ff: TUM SE HI...[COMPLETED✔]

Chapter Twenty: The Lost Soul...

(Manik's POV--Part Two)

There's a old saying that Lightning never struck the same place twice. Well obviously those who said that surely never fallen in love and had never got their heart broken.

The moment I walked away from her leaving alone in that room my heart ripped into pieces. As if someone had pierced a sharp object through it. The pain was too much for me to bear.

I left the party in haste. I didn't bother to inform anyone in person because I wasn't in right state of mind to give answers to anyone. I knew that my quota of patience and self control was on the edge of getting over. I am loosing control over my emotions and anger.

If someone asked me anything it wouldn't take a second for me to snap at them--I know I would severely regret my actions and behaviour later--but that wouldn't had be enough to stop me from acting like that at that moment. So without informing anyone I got into my car and left for home.

I was driving like a maniac. That's why I covered the distance of 45 minutes in 18 minutes to be specific--not bad--that had to be a record of some kind. I realised my phone was constantly ringing. I opened it to find 56 missed calls .

Damn!!! they all must be so worried. I felt bad but not bad enough to call back. So instead I left them a message that I wasn't feeling well so I got back home. I asked them not to panic. I will be fine once I take a nap. I also asked them to enjoy themselves and not to rush back in hurry just for me--because I knew they were enjoying themselves --so I didn't wanted to spoil their fun night.

Once I got back to my room I straightaway head for the shower. After changing I dashed on my bed. Every moment that I spent away from her was only making me restless--my heart was craving for her and so was my soul.

Fortunately sleep took mercy on me and took me into it's embrace. But even there she didn't leave my mind--because that was the first time I dreamt of her.

If I thought that morning would brought me some peace I couldn't be more wrong. It only made the matter worse. Every second that I was away from her this pain got worse to the extent of becoming totally unendurable--that's when my heart took control--so that it could be relieved from the pain.But unfortunately now even my mind lost the sense of right and wrong anymore

Though I know morally what I did was correct but somehow my heart and my soul was not ready to hear any excuses anymore. My mind--which shook me to the core at that moment and made me realised that whatever I was doing was wrong--lost the war against my heart.

To my surprise now even my mind doesn't want to dwell into this game of what is right or wrong. Now it has became best of friends with my heart and it will do anything in order to find a way so that it can get back to --her.

Since my heart and mind were no longer at war I knew that I have lost the ultimate war of righteousness. Because thanks to my mind and heart the decision was already made for me--that I need NANDINI--By hook or by Crook.
Who would have thought that two of my own body organs had the capabilities to derail me and my life.

So I took my guitar and do what I do best--create some music. Once again as soon as I closed my eyes she took over my mind once again and flooded my heart and mind with her memories. But unlike other time this time instead of swimming against the wave I decided to let go.

So I drowned myself into those memories and before I knew I was floating and I just went with the flow and went wherever it wanted to take me. Since I was on my guitar at the same time a new tune started playing automatically. And that was beautiful just like her.