Sidemen Oneshots

Zerkstar - Long lost love

(Vik's P.O.V)

I've never told anyone this, but I used to be in an online relationship as a kid. When I say a kid, I'm talking about 12. It's not something I was particularly proud of because I never knew what this guy looked like, how old they were or anything much about their personal life, apart from the fact that they were a bisexual male and he did say that he was 16 at the time. I was happy he was bisexual because I was openly gay to those who are close to me. Even now, all the Sidemen know about my sexual preference. In fact, you wouldn't believe it but all the sidemen are either gay, bisexual or pansexual. Anyways, it lasted 5 years, but then he turned 21, he said he was extremely busy when he finished Uni and he had a range of commitments. he said it also wasn't healthy to continue a relationship where we didn't know anything really about one another, apart from school life and our personalities/ troubles we went to one another, we never even had any knowledge of how each other look like. We were honest with each other, but that's it. I'll be honest, I think he realised his responsibility after becoming an adult. I bet he regrets his 16-year-old self, talking and dating a 12-year-old online, not knowing exactly ho he was talking to. 

Not long after we broke up, I joined the sidemen. Harry wasn't a part of it at that point. The others were all good friends and I felt a little left out when they made Fifa references, but they still made me feel like family. But I still couldn't forget about that guy. No matter how busy my schedule is, and no matter how much fun I have with the guys. I still miss him. Even having other relationships doesn't make my feeling for him deteriorate in any way. Josh is an exception...in a way. He's so kind, considerate, joyful. If he was into males, then I'll definitely go out with him- though he has Freya. The bad thing about Josh is, he reminds me of him. The boy I love. They seem rather similar. And it pains me. I still remember everything we did in those five blissful years

He called himself JBZRK. He said he called himself that because it was an inside joke of some sort. I didn't pry. I mean starlight isn't the most personal username you could pick. I just loved stars back then, and even now I think they're pretty. The site we used was old, hardly anyone ever used it. I can't even remember the name. Oddly enough, it was supposed to e an educational school-based social media that you can use to communicate to other students across the UK to ask help on topics in class so others can help. But those who left secondary still could use the app, as long as they said they were tutors, and I do mean across the UK. Almost every kid in school knew about it. But loads of people said it was lame and never used it, apart from in year 7 when everything was cool. But I met that guy when he asked a question about stars. I gave a really long answer, and he asked me if we could be friends and have a private chat so he can learn more. At least that was his honest intentions. We then did get distracted and then, we generally just started talking, for hours. We shared feeling, secrets about ourselves and other things, without going too personal as to give our identities away. We then fell in love, and we were a couple. 

But it ended swiftly. It was bound to happen. We didn't know who either of the other was. It made sense. That still doesn't ease the pain, the sorrow, the heartbreak. I really wish we were still together because out of all the relationships I've been in, I believe I loved him the most. If only it could work out. Just thinking about it just makes me cry. I really am such a girl. But I don't care. It hurts. I just want to cry. I thought I heard a knock on my door but I ignored it thinking it was just me. The sound of my sobs does make it hard for me to actually distinguish sounds. But when I heard the door bust open, I then knew it wasn't just me. I turned around to see Josh. His face is coated with panic. I look up to him. I can tell that my eyes are probably swollen read and my face is tear stained from my crying just a moment go. Josh wasted no time and rushed to my side to give me a hug.  

"Vik, What's wrong? Tell me please." Josh pleaded comfortingly if that even is a thing. I sobbed, into his chest. my breath hitched I tried to speak, but all that came out were weeps. Josh cooed me, allowing me time to calm down and compose myself to speak. It took me a while but we stayed there until I was ready.

"It's a long story, but I will explain briefly as best I can.2 I replied rubbing the remaining tears out of my eyes. He nodded his head, indicating that I should continue. "I was 12 years old. Yes, we are really going 9 years back for this. I met this guy online. He was really sweet, nice and cheerful. we became friends and actually soon after that we actually became lovers. that lasted five years. The guy though suddenly but understandably said that he couldn't come online anymore to that particular website and we should end it. We didn't even know who each other was. Our relationship was unhealthy. I agreed with him and we ended it. The thing is. I still love him. crazy right. Falling in love with a stranger you met online. But I did. We may not have known each other's identities, but we shared problems, hobbies, thoughts, feelings and we would talk for hours. the person I got to know behind that screen really changed me for the better. I knew we had to end it, but I just wish it could've worked out in some way." I explained. 

"Vik," He responded sympathetically, "You know, I had a very similar issue. I also met someone online 9 years ago. I was 16 at the time. This was some revision website where students across the UK would go to. I needed help for my project on stars so I asked a question. the guy I then ended up dating responded with probably the most detail I've ever seen. I was amazed by how good his work was. I wanted more help so I asked him to accept my friend request and we private messaged about it. I found out that the kid was 12. It really surprised me. This kid was so helpful, smart as hell and so cheerful. Sometimes we would generally talk about other things and I fell in love. It was bad since I was dating Freya at the time, and I fell in love with a 12-year-old who I don't even know his name. He did ask me out though. Without hesitation, I said yes. I even dumped Freya then to be with him. Then I turned 21. I finished Uni, and I was still going out with him. I didn't want to do it, I had to end it. Not because I didn't love him because lord only knows that I love him to death even now. I didn't want to steal his future. He had never been with anyone else for five years. He deserves some intimate relationships. I just wished I knew him.  Even getting back with Freya didn't help anything, though I stuck with her as it was better than nothing and I have no reason to dump her again," Josh the told me, with a sad smile on his face, whilst he stared into oblivion. 

I am just in shock right now. His story is literally identical to mine I ask with hesitation "Was your username JBZRK by any chance?"

"Yeah, why do you...Oh god, you were Starlight weren't you?" Josh asked, piecing everything together.

"Josh, It was you!" I state in disbelief.  then jump into his arms and tackle him.

"This is like a dream come true. In all honesty, you did resemble him, but my word." Josh rambles, at a loss for words.

"I've been waiting to finally meet you," I respond. Josh leans closer to my face and I do the same. he then crashed his lips onto mine, and I responded tugging him closer to me. I've been waiting for a moment like this. I've been dreaming of doing this with him. And now that I know it is Josh, it makes it all better. Josh licks my lips, asking for entrance, I gladly let him, deepening the kiss. He explored every part of my mouth and I did the same with him. Our tounges danced together, Josh obviously taking dominance, which I had no objections with. Soon our lungs couldn't handle it so we pulled out. Out of all the kisses that I've experienced, this is by far the best. Josh pulls me to his chest, and I snuggle into it. 

"I love you, Josh," I mumbled into his chest.

"I love you too, Vik, " He replies, stroking my hair with one hand, and snaking his other around my waist. We stayed with each other for a while. This is everything I've ever dreamed about. My long lost love has returned to me, and now, I know everything about him.

A/N- Thank you guys so much for reading. Over 700 reads is amazing. I have released my Ministar book  "One Way" now and it is on two chapters now (filthy promo). I would be grateful if you guys would check it out. The support on this book is incredible so it would be amazing if you gave that book the same support. I have put warnings on the book so please read them and be warned- it's not a book with sunshine and rainbows (well apart from the gay). I still can't believe how this book has done so amazingly. I can't thank each of you enough. If you have any suggestions, then please comment them and I will write them. thank you guys for all the support once again :)