Sidemen Oneshots

Kstar - User (Sequel)

A/N - Hey guys I'm finally writing again. Whooooo! Anyways LittleAwesomePopTart has requested that I do a sequel to this one-shot, It's been a long while so bear with my atrocious writing but I hope I can serve this request justice. Please read that before reading this otherwise this might not make as much sense. I will tell you guys more about myself and where I've been at the end for those who care. Now on to the story!

Warnings - Angst ( not too serious just like my other one-shot but it has a happy ending - YAY!!!!!!!)

(Vik's P.O.V)

It's been a week since then, the time which I used JJ. And ever since then, I've been losing sleep due to my guilt tearing me apart. How could I be so selfish? I used him not only to get my freedom away from Kay ( so she finally gets the message) but also I just wanted to get an opportunity to live out my desires for once in my life. And now, I miss him. I miss the security I felt in his firm yet gentle hold, I loved the chills his raspy yet caring voice sent down my spine when he whispered sweet nothings into my ear. And most importantly, I missed the sensation of his soft and full lips kissing my cheeks.

But he did it out of care - not love. It's not right to abuse someone's good nature just for personal satisfaction. He did it for me, every loving and intimate act that was shown. It was all just for me. And I shouldn't feel any attraction to fake embraces, I shouldn't feel any connection with this deceiving act. But I loved it - every moment of it. Hence, I feel guilty. How can I enjoy such pleasure from actions that were supposed to be superficial? If only it was real. If only I could live with him like that for the rest of y life.

Even if there was any trace of romantic interest that he had for me, I eradicated all chances of that ever happening when I said "Best friend". Why the hell did I even say that? He is definitely more than my "best friend". I'm such a moron. well, I guess there was no chance of him loving me anyways. I should give up. If only it was that simple. I mean I've been trying to forget about my feelings for him for as long as I can remember. My conception of time is just non-existent at the moment. I guess that's what happens when you mix love and youtube together- Chaos.

Tonight is no different to any other night I've experienced this week. I record, edit, try to sleep then find myself sleep deprived. The others haven't clocked on yet - thanks to the wonderful discovery of caffeine and sugar I consume before videos, though now I think I'm becoming more tolerant - which is never a good sign. Then a random thought popped into my head to eat some cereal in the middle of the night for no apparent reason, but since I'm doing nothing else but self-deprivation, I thought "Hey, why the fuck not." Why did I say that out loud?

Still, in a state of mild confusion over my previous action, I headed down the stairs haphazardly. Evidently, I hardly paid attention to the direction I was going apart from the kitchen. Then I heard subtle but clear sobs coming from....... JJ's room? That thought knocked my senses back into me as I subconsciously made my way frantically to his door. As soon as I reached my destination, I took a moment to compose myself to the right state of mind. I knocked on the door relatively quietly so he could hear me, but I wouldn't disturb the others. I called out his name. Suddenly he went silent. I asked him if I could enter his room but no response. just in case I checked the handle and pushed on the door slightly, to my surprise, it was unlocked. I took the executive decision to let myself in seeing as he wasn't going to reply to me. As I let myself in, I noticed that the room was pitch black dice it's the middle of the night and all lights are switched off. I turn on the switch adjacent to me and a tear stain JJ became more visible. That site broke my heart. Here JJ did everything for me to make me feel better, yet I couldn't do the same. Hell, I didn't even know that JJ was even upset to begin with. How can I even state that I'm his best friend.

He looks up to me with his swollen eyes as I approach him for comfort. He seemed hesitant for some reason when I offered a hug but gave in almost instantly as he sobbed into my shoulder.

"JJ, what's wrong man? What made you so upset." I asked with concern

"It's really petty honestly." JJ replied in a croaky voice.

"JJ whatever it is, you're clearly upset by it so it's got to be something that's worth speaking about. You can tell me anything." I reassured him. Such a friend I am if he's willing to hide something from me. Then again I'm no different. Though how can I tell my best friend who might not even swing that way my hidden love for him. Hi finally speaks.

"Fine, I'll tell you. You deserve to know at least. I've fallen in love for someone who I cannot be with. I've been trying to forget about them but I just can't. I love them with all my heart, but what can I do? They won't even think about being with me in that way. They even called me their "best friend". Vik, what do I do?"

It took me a while to process what he said. His story sounds so similar to me and what I'm going through. Then it hit me "best friend". Oh shit.

"JJ correct me if I'm wrong but... you're... talking about... me.... right?" I question with suspicion. I hope I'm wrong. He just stares at me, eyes open wide. Oh fuck I am right!

"Oh fuck, I am such a awful, stupid prick!" I exclaimed more at myself.

"Vik don't say that! You didn't know!" He responded in defence.

"No JJ you don't understand. I do love you. I've been in love with you for the longest of time. That's the main reason why I suggested...that. There are many other ways for me to be rid of Kay. I just wanted to live out one day with you and me together. I used you, and I never even knew that I didn't need to. I'm so sorry JJ!" I explained, now in tears as well.

JJ was obviously speechless. I mean he had no idea I was in love with him as well. I don't even know what to say any no. This whole situation seems to be so fictional. JJ suddenly spoke up in a confused tone.

"Wait, so if you were in love with me, why the he'll did you only call me your vest friend?"

"Because I'm a fucking idiot who spouts shit out of my mouth  without even thinking. Honestly I regretted what I said even since I heard those words out of my mouth." I replied in a frustrated tone- directed at myself.

We just stared at each other in silence, beither of us understanding what exactly is going on. Then we burst out in laughter simultainously. I mean what else can I say in such a situation. Shit is so unbelievable.

"Nah babe for real though, this is too good to be true. I generally can't believe I was so blind to not realise your feelings." JJ managed to form that sentence amongst his gasps for air.

"No JJ, I'm sorry for being such an ashore and for using you when there was no need and misleading you. JJ, I love you. Will you still return my feelings after all that I've done to you?" I asked sincerely.

"Of course I do, I still and have always loved you." JJ replied with just as much compassion and kindness as he always does, though it feels better now.

I could stop smiling. Failing to contain my joy, I kept onto JJ, nuzzling my face into the crevis of his neck. JJ reciprocated by wrapping his arms round me, making me more secure than ever before. This moment right here feels so much more - special- than that other time. Maybe because we both know each other's true feelings instead of just assuming the worst.

And we stayed the night together in each other's arms. We didn't push the boundaries any further, but after that reveal, neither of us could bear to stay the night alone.

No matter how we got to where we are now, I'm just glad to finally be with JJ.

A/N- Thank you so much for all the support. 5k reads and over 200 votes is unbelieveable, considering how bad I am for uploading. I have been soooooo busy lately. I've started college (Well sixth form really because I'm British) and I've had a lot of family issues. I will be posting but it will be very inconsistent. As for my other book, It will be even more infrequent. I'm so sorry but I just can't at the moment. I'll see you guys later and thank you. Special thanks to LittleAwesomePopTart for the request.