Sidemen Oneshots

Minizerk- My little secret

A/N - Just a heads up, this is mainly minizerk, but I am throwing a mix of Kstar in there just because, don't worry though, almost the entire thing is minizerk but just wanted to warn anyone who wants to know beforehand (in case you don't want to read anything to do with kstar cuz you don't ship it, which I don't mind, each to their own).

(Josh's P.O.V)

It's been 2 years, 2 years since I started dating the adorable, eye-candy that is Simon Minter. Simon, although still in the closet like me even now, was obviously gay from the beginning. I mean not having a single girl as yours, even if almost all girls he meets literally drool over him, and his romantic experiences with girls consisting of numerous one-night stands, and practically none of them bar one example I remember, ever happen in the sidemen house. Only I picked up on it as I questioned this with the other guys and they thought that it was normal.  But ever since I had this inclination with Simon having a possible attraction to dudes, it got me hopeful for something more with Simon. as you would've guessed, I also am attracted to dudes. But I'm not gay... I'm pansexual. Since I have a "girlfriend", no one suspects me either. In fact to this date, everyone still thinks that I'm in love with Freya - bar Simon. 

Oh and I do mean everyone else - even Freya. I tried breaking up with her multiple times. I think the total got to about 15 times. To which all of them was replied with complete oblivious statements. Or maybe she's blinded by the love she has for me. Nah, I sound way too full of myself by saying something as ridiculous as that. Nevertheless, we are still "dating" even if Simon is my boyfriend. That's why he's my secret boyfriend. Literally, no one has any clue about or real relationship and to be honest - it's actually quite hilarious. Seeing how absent-minded and oblivious everyone is to our actual status is amusing at best. Seriously, I can't get enough of it. But I do like it this way. The fact that, apart from a couple of baseless fangirls who "ship" us, no one knows about us, so our relationship is personal, it's special' it's just for the two of us. And I like it that way. 

Vik hardly leaves his room - not to mention his sleep schedule is whack- and JJ never stays in the house for long. So we find ourselves with plenty of time to operate our secret cuddle time. Just the two of us. This is one of the many reasons why it's not a burden to keep our relationship hidden. Of course, there are many other factors, but if I was to list them all, we'll be here forever, and I'm sure people would leave halfway through being bored out of their mind. Nevertheless, I'm glad that we can keep this between the two of us, no one else needs to know anything. I can tell Simon feels the same way. He was the one who suggested to keep it a secret and he generally seems the happiest when it's just the two of us. 

The only thing he isn't a fan of is Freya. Sure he can't find any faults with her as a person - apart from being an air-head. Yet he still finds himself despising Freya. I believe it's out of jealousy that it's literally impossible to break up with her. Hell Simon literally kissed me in front of her multiple times on the lips, with me not being hesitant, and she still doesn't get the message.  Either that or she's pretending to be oblivious so she can stay with me. No matter if it's her oblivious nature or if she's that desperate, Simon is obviously jealous that I'm still with her. I don't blame him though. I mean who wouldn't be jealous when your partner has a "significant other" that refuses to break up with them.

But that jealousy doesn't stop us from being together. I never want it to stop us being together. But it's been two years, maybe I'm rushing things, but I want to move our relationship to the next level. To do that I need to properly end things with Freya. So that's why I'm over at her apartment knocking at the front door. 

The door was opened and I was welcomed by a cheerful Freya. I still don't want to hurt her, she's been there for me at the toughest moments of my life. I'll admit after about a year of dating, we sort of drifted apart romantically, but we're still close. We felt more like friends than lovers, and that was before I found out my feelings towards Simon. But it's for the best. We can't keep going on like this. We have to end this weirdness known as our "relationship".