Sidemen Oneshots

Minizerk - Change

Simon's P.O.V

Lately, I've noticed that Josh has changed. It's not major or anything but he tries and avoids me at most occasions or avoids speaking to me within recording sessions as much as he can, whilst looking somewhat the same. Why am I the only one who noticed this (apart from Vik who's always been very observant)? Well, I may be secretly obsessed with him do I notice any change within Josh. Vik also knows about my feelings towards Josh but vows to keep it a secret till I confess. That just means to me now that I have an advisor. At first, I was thinking that I was imagining it but when Vik also knew, then I knew it couldn't be just a conspiracy in my mind.

It got me thinking, why is he avoiding me? A number of possibilities ran in my head. Maybe he doesn't want to be around me anymore, maybe he found out about my feelings towards me and is awkward about the whole situation or just maybe I hurt him in some way. These possibilities depressed me even more. It should be clear that I'm not known to be the most optimistic person you've come across. In fact most of the time, I'm just that morbid. Yet even my own thoughts are too much for me as my heart is a lot more sensitive than my mind - a suicidal combo. But these thoughts do prepare me for the worst. To be fair, my pessimistic nature just turns the sweet times in life all the more memorable and enjoyable.

Despite my negetive mindset, the last thing I wish to do is actually be a burden of any sort to Josh. That's how much I love him. So if I'm the problem, then maybe I should do something but I fon't know what to do. What if, I leave? That way we avoid each other more easily without getting suspicious. No moving out would be suspicious on my end. I have no motive to actually entertain such an idea, unless I reveal my true self to all. Only Vik and my family knows my sexual orientation and they all support it. But I like to keep it that way so my sex and love life can remain my own. So what can I do. Then the idea came spontainiously out from the blue. I could visit my family a lot more often. If I do that, I can avoid Josh and not act suspicious in any way. If the guys ask me afterward why visiting my family is imperative now, I coild always bluff my way with a typical family issue that is causing me to visit more often. Though Vik would know the truth without me needing to utter a word. He could probably tell what exactly goes within my head just by looking at me. That's actually a scary thought.

So recently, I've been making round trips to my parents house. I love my parents so I told them the truth. I've always done. They already know Josh and like him so they encourage me to start a relationship with him. But I digress. There's no point in engaging in a unrequited love for either party. So I never made a move.

We continued like this for some time. Josh would say he's busy with his clothes line and I would try and record more on my own with often visits to my family. It stayed uneventful for some time. That is until Vik became surprisingly frustrated. None of us knew why. You see Vik may be able to read others but no one can read him. He let out a sigh of fustration before grabbing me and Josh by the collar and dragging us to this random unused room in the house. We have way too many of those.

"Neither of you will come out of this room till you solve your problem. Face it. You both used to be so close out of the sidemen. You guys were literally inseparable. But now you guys are both avoiding each other by all means. I know why both of you guys are doing what you are but because of that you guys should talk to each other to settle this issue because you may have not noticed it but you guys are creating a lot of awkward tension and to me this issue was hilarious at first but now is getting annoying and frustrating. So sort it out before I spill all the beans and I mean it." Vik informed in a scolding manner. God he was angry. But for what reason. Josh seemed as confused as I.

"So if we do what Vik said. Then why Simon are you pretending to go to your family constantly for a fake problem and record alone more." Josh asked surprisingly hurt. What do I say? Well Vik can probably hear us so I have no choice but to be honest.

"Because I believed I was a burden to you in some way. I disn't know if you didn't like me anymore, whether you just wanted some distance or if I hurt you in any way but all possibilities that ran into my head lead me to believe I was a burden so I tried to distance myself too so you could feel better as much as it hurt me to do so." I replied meekly but honestly.

"Wait! You did it for me!?" Josh asked in complete shock. All I could do was nod. He then started giggling then chuckling which grew into this uncontrollable fit of laughter.

"Hey! What's so funny?" I questioned somewhat offended.

"Nah, it's nothing to do with you ... But me," he replied in a more serious tone calming himself down. I was confused at this point. What does he mean by that? My question wouldn't go unanswered for that long.

"I should then tell you the reason why I was avoiding you. To be honest. I don't know how I should tell you this. But a while ago, I started feeling uneasy when you are around. I still do. I didn't know why before so I avoided you. But I do now. It may sound wierd, stupid and unbelievable. But Simon. I love you. But I avoided you because I didn't know how to act around you. Still when you were avoiding me, it hurt me. It's me being selfish but..." I cut Josh off with a kiss. Safe to say he wasn't expecting it. But he didn't pull back but instead reciprocated. So I knew his feelings were genuine.
After a tender sweet kiss that lasted a few blissful seconds, we reluctantly and awkwardly pulled apart. Both of us were speechless. Then cheekily I spoke up "Well that's my response." He just chuckled cutesy and nodded only saying "Indeed."

I approached him again not going for a kiss but just some closure and said softly "Josh I love you far too much."

"And I do too," was his reply.

Ruining the moment, possibly by purpose, Vik barged into the room. "Congratulations you guys. It took you forever to finally get together. You should've been a thing from ages ago. Honestly. But honestly thank God you guys are a thing. You guys are so adorable together," Vik sighed and fanboyed at the same time.

"Thanks Vik," we both said in unison, to which he hawked at us for. It may have taken us a while but this is truly one of the most happiest moments of my life.

A/N - Sorry guys this has taken so long but I was sick throughout this weekend because I literally jumped into a lake and caught a cold. Not kidding. Internet here is awful so it's hard to publish but I'm still alive. Again you can request anything just comment and I'll see you guys on the next chapter :)