Sidemen Oneshots

Wroetostar+Minishaw- Heart Broken

Warnings - Angsty but it's not too sad.

Vik's P.O.V

For about a year, or maybe for a bit longer, I've been suspicious of Harry's behaviour. It was odd. The way he acted around me and the things he would suggest us do. For example, He wished for me to come over the Gurnsey out of all places just to meet his whole family face to face. I mean it's not like his parents don't know me or anything. But still. Why would he want me to do something that ridiculous?

However, believe it or not only recently did I find the answer to that question. And it was nine other than my best friend Tobi. We may not seem it since I see the other guys more often, but me and Tobi are really close. He will tell me everything and likewise. That's how I knew that Harry has a crush on me. Yes you heard me. Harry loves me. And the thing is, there is no way I can ever view him that way. It isn't because I don't swing that way (though I'm not hinting at my sexual preference), it's more that means Harry are complete opposites. Harry is a ballsy kid, whereas I'm the frightened coward of the group. It'd not self deprivation or anything. In fact I prefer my more or less sensible personality. It's just that I know it's who I am. And I don't think we can ever be closer than what we are right now.

People tend to think that opposites attract, but I think the romantics have gotten too far. If you are opposites, how do you form a connection. Me and Harry share nothing in common, so I can see our relationship going nowhere. I don't know why Harry fell for me, but knowing him, it's for reasons which also prevent me from falling in love with him.

I can't lie to him either. He's too precious for me to betray him like that. But I'm not suppose to know this. Tobi may have told me this because he felt like I needed to know, since he already knows how I feel about him in return, but if he finds out that Tobi betrayed him like that, then I don't know what I would do. It would be too much for Harold.

If only there was a way. A way for Harry to give up on me. But something like that wouldn't just conveniently turn up out of the blue. I need to think. How do I want to play this. How can I play this. This is the one thing I can't afford to screw up, after all there is no second chances. I'm getting too philosophical now. Just think.

Then I came up with an idea. An idea that may sound cruel but right now, I'm limited in options. This plan involves a lot of deception. All I need to do is to make Harry give up on me and involves a certain someone. Simon.

It's no secret that Simon has had a huge crush on Harry to all of us in the house plus Tobi and Ethan. But Simon also knew Harry's feelings about me apparently. Well Tobi told me that. Buy if Simon agrees with me here, then maybe no one will get hurt. It may be wrong in so many ways, but I'm a coward to tell him to truth to be very honest. It's not like that choice is easy to make anyways since it will not just affect me and Harry only.

So I go to Simon's room. He's definitely editing right now. No way will he ever record at this hour. I knock on the door to which he welcomes me. Simon has always been so cheerful, even when he's depressed on the inside. That thought makes me feel a little bit guilty and very sympathetic. Still I came here for a reason and I need to straighten things out so he can get on bored with it. I explain to him my plan. It took him a while but he was finally convinced that this is the best for Harry.

I should probably tell you the plan. I want Simon to confess his love to Harry. It's not as if this plan involves me lying to him. But just a bit of manipulation. That way if he realizes that Simon has whole-hearted feelings for him, then he might forget about me in general. It's the kindest thing I can do.

The day arrives and I begin to feel anxious. I mean this is the day which everything should end. Simon seems more composed than I do. I wonder what is generally going on inside Simon's head. Simon has always been the calm and collected one out of us all (as part from Josh and Tobi really). But would you call them calm or rational. What am I even going on about. God I really need to learn not to go on tangents.

I hide in s cupbored whilst Simon awaits for Harry's arrival. After what seems to be a century, Harry and Simon make their way together to the sofas in the lounge in perfect veiw from my spot. After some idle chat. I hear Simon confess his love to him. Everything is going to plan.

"Are you serious Simon?" Harry asks in disbelief. Oh uh! Harry sounds somewhat dejected.

"Yes I am. I've had these feelings for the longest of time, but every day I was fighting my urges as I surpress my feelings. Though the rest of the sidemen all caught on eventually."  Simon replies sincerely.

Harry was silent. He was silent for way too long. Things are not looking so good.

"Simon. You know this as well, I can tell. I'm sorry I can't be with you." Harry replied. Wait what does that mean. It's definitely about me. But why say it like that.

"It's Vik isn't it. You still haven't given up yet right?" Simon asks. Why doesn't he realizes. He's such an idiot.

"No, I'm recovering Simon. It's clear to me that Vik doesn't like me that way. But I just can't stop thinking about him. He was the first person I truly fell in love with for more than just simple reasons such as looks or basic personality traits. But I can't force a relationship on him, and I know how he feels. So either he might change his feelings by some miracle or I can move on." Harry replies. So he knew. Then why. None of this makes any sense.

"You don't want me too be a rebound so yo u won't date me for that reason. Am I right?" Simon lightly interrogated. Harry just nodded. At that moment, I realised that my plan was evil and Harry's feelings for me were slot stronger than I anticipated. But I never knew that he knew. What was the point of rubbing salt into the wound. Why am I so horrible?

Harry spoke up after a while. "Simon, I can't give up. I don't know why but I just can't. I'm not saying you should as well because that's hypocritical, but I thought I should tell you that at least."

"Harry, I gave up a long time ago. I just thought it would be best to tell you this. I mean it does kind of involve you. But don't worry. I've given up." Simon replied with dejected smile. This is too much. I was the cause of all of this. Why? Why does it have to be this way?

"Vik told you to confess right?" Harry questioned bluntly. That question threw the both of us off. How did he know. "Don't worry Simon. I don't hold anything against him doing this. He probably just wants me to move on and be happy. But untill I lose these feelings for him, I will then be ready to move on. But I can't just give up like that." Harry vented out.

"I know Harry. I know how hard it is," Simon consoled him. After a few moments of comforting from the pair, Harry left the house. Immediately I left the cupbored and just fell on my knees. Simon came in to hug me. I used his shoulder and just sobbed gently.

Why is this so heart breaking for us all?

A/N- Hey guys sorry for the crap ending. I really did not know what to write. Hopefully you enjoy this. If you were ever interested, My Ministar One Way book is not discontinued but is on hold. I'm sorry but I just haven't had the time. In fact I'm writing this today when I have a bio and chem exam today! Anyways thank you guys so much for reading this. 7k is unbelievable. I don't know why so many people like this but it makes me happy nonetheless. I will see you guys on my next chapter. I just realised that I cAll these chapters when they're one-shots. Oh well. Bye guys