M.D.J.
Okay, hindi kami nagkaintindihan ng papa ko though nagprangkahan kami. Sensitive much siya. Siguro nga, sobrang manhid ko na to the point na nakabelow the belt na ako. I didn't expect na ganun ang mangyayari. Naintindihan ko naman ang papa ko pero I know kahit anong pilit niyang pag-intindi, hindi niya talaga maiintindihan. Sa generation ko, parehong salita ang ginagamit ko pero para sa akin iba ang meaning pero nililiteral niya. so give way. lasing ang papa ko, kaya sensitive.
=__= lesson learned: huwag prangkahin si pudra pag lasing.
Nakalimutan kong oldies ang peg niya.
I am not good with words for christ's sake! I better show it with my actions. Sigh. He didn't and will never understand me. Never.
That was my first time I heard my father cursed me. I understand. He was drunk.
sigh. That's why I never opened up with my family even with my sister though I know she will and can understand me.
I also forgot that he has the highest pride. -,-
They still not know me. They did not know the true me. And maybe, they will not know the real me until I grow up. They know me for who they want to be me.
Sabi na eh. I think, sina Claire, Aiko, at Princess lang ang nakakakilala sa totoong ako.
Palamigin muna ang ulo ni pudra. I expect na balik sa dati o mas malala na. I am slowly opening up with my family but I changed my mind. I did the wrong move.
Mas mabuting pinanatili ko na lang yung wall sa pagitan ko at ng family ko.
Tsk. Feel ko ang galit ni pudra. Nagwawala sa kwarto nila. I hit below the belt. I'm sorry to that but I know he won't accept my apology at this moment. I am really sorry...
But... I made up my mind, they will never know nor understand me because I will be the one who will set a thicker wall between us.
It is better for them to see me as who they want to see in me.
That's final.
-,- parang nagsimula to sa usapang sholarship. sigh.
Good night.
PS: ang dami ko pa palang butas. I am still not a totally dumb as what I thought. I feel sorry too for what I have done to my father. :(
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M.D.J.
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