Roommates [Double B]

dried tears

(Hanbin's pov)

I walk away from the supermarket with loads of food. I ended up buying everything that Jiwon wanted and some random things to cheer him up. The walk was pretty tiring because everything was heavy but just the thought of helping my best friend made me feel better. After climbing the stairs up to our apartment I open the door and walk in. Jiwon is nowhere to be seen so I leave the bags on the counter and walk to our room to see him with his head on his knees and his arms hugging his legs. I sit on the bed beside him and realize that he's crying.
- Hey... Are you ok?
He doesn't reply but I hear him sighing sadly. I realize he's shaking violently.
- Do you wanna talk about it? You know I'm here for you right? If you need anything...
No response. I sigh.
- Hyung, I'm sorry if I'm being pushy but who was he?
He drops his arms and straights up his legs before looking up.
- He was the worst part of my life.
The strong way he says it, even though he's still crying, makes my heart break because I know how serious he's being. I know how much crap he's been trough and how much he suffered with different things and the fact that I never heard of this guy makes me sad.
- Why you never told me about him?
- I... I guess it just hurted too much back then... I could never bring it up without crying... And I wasn't sure if you... I mean, we just met each other and I couldn't let you see me cry...
- And why you didn't told me later?
He laughs lightly but there's no humor on it.
- I guess it never stopped hurting. Just remembering it...
Jiwon starts sobbing harder and drops his head in defeat. My first instinct is to cup his face on my hands and dry away his tears but I hold myself back and just place a hand on his leg.
- Am I a bad person, Bin? Did I deserve it?
- Don't you dare to say things like that! I move to seat even closer to him and continue:
- You're an amazing perfect person and you never deserved to suffer, but life is shitty and bad things happen to good people. I don't know what that asshole has done to you, but I'm a hundred percent sure you did not deserve it.
He looks up at me once again and gives me the tiniest smile, but I know that this smile is sincere and thankful and it makes me feel relieved. He slowly gets his head closer, laying it against my chest. We stay like that for a couple of minutes until I realize my hand still is on his thigh so I take it off awkwardly and say:
- You know, I bought all the stuff you wanted...
He looks up without moving his head and smiles.
- Did you? You didn't have to.
- It's ok, I wanted to. Plus, I bought some popcorn and chocolate so we can eat while we watch some movies.
He smiles even more until his eyes are nearly closed and I can't help but to smile back at him.
- You're too good, Bin.
My hand moves on its own, cleaning the dried tears of the corner of his eye. I look into his pretty eyes and realize they're not nearly closed anymore, but round shaped in surprise. I take my hand off his face and break the eye contact, nervously asking:
- So, should we go watch something?
He slowly gets away from my chest and nods.
- I'll just go to the bathroom first.
- Ok, I'll make the popcorn.
- Thank you, Bin.
- You're welcome.
- I mean it. Thank you.
- I mean it too. You're always welcome, hyung.