Roommates [Double B]

recovery

After a very tiring night and a difficult morning I finally have the time to take a shower and lay down in bed. I turn to Jiwon, who's laying by my side, and speak while my eyes are nearly closing on their own:
- I'll sleep now but you have to promise to stay in bed until I wake up. You can wake me up if you're hungry.
- It's ok Bin, I promise I won't get up. I'll start to do Mrs. Kim paper. If I get too tired I'll spoon you and take a nap.
- Mhm... Good. - My eyelids get too heavy and I close my eyes, sighing loudly with the pleasure of finally being able to rest.

I wake up hours later, I can tell that the sun is setting by the dark shades of blue and orange on the sky. I look around, searching for Jiwon. He's writing on his laptop and he smiles at me when he realizes I'm awake.
- Good morning.
- Mmm... I'm pretty sure it should be good evening already.
He smiles, showing his cute crooked teeth.
- Slept well?
- I slept like a rock.
- Good.
- Are you hungry?
- A little, but I ate an apple so you should be hungrier.
- I'm starving. Should we order take out?
- Sure.
- Ok.
I roll around, looking for my phone. I go through the options and ask Jiwon what he wanted, making the call right after. We stay on bed while we wait for the food.
- How's the paper going?
- It's ok, there's a lot of work but it's not that hard and I did a lot already.
I get closer to him, laying my head on his hip to look at what he's doing. He places his hand on my head, massaging my scalp lightly, sending shivers to my hole body.
- It looks good. Just remember you need to send the final work to her before Christmas.
- I know.
I stay silent for a bit, while I think about the Holidays.
- Will you go home for the Holidays?
- I don't think so.
- Why?
- I'm not on the best place with my family right now.
- But you were so close with them.
- I know. But I'm not strong enough right now to hear my family asking if I fixed myself already and looking disappointed when I tell them that I'm still gay.
His hand stop playing with my hair and his eyes aren't on the laptop anymore. They're on his lap, a hint of sadness on the way his eyebrows are curved. I stay quiet, thinking if I should ask something, deciding that I should.
- When did you tell them?
- A couple of years ago.
- Was it bad?
- Yeah... My brother never talked with me again and my dad looked so disappointed.
- What about your mom?
- She was scared for me. She asked if I was sure. If there was nothing we could do to change this. After a few months she started to accept it. She still doesn't like the subject but she says that she still loves me.
- I'm sorry that they reacted so badly.
- I never avoided them during the Holidays before but I don't think I can do it this year. I'm too broken. Literally and figuratively.
- It's ok, you don't have to do it. We can stay home, cuddle under some warm blankets while it snows outside and  have an awesome ramyeon for Christmas dinner.
- You don't have to stay here because of me. I know you always spend the Holidays with your family. I swear I'll be ok on my own.
- But I want to. My family won't miss me that much. I always visit them anyway. I really wanted some relaxing time with you anyway.
- Still, it's your family...
- You're my family now, Jiwon.
The older boy looks at me with wide eyes and blushed cheeks, when the loud noise of the doorbell interrupts us.
- I'll get that.
I get up and grab my wallet on the way to the door. I grab our food and pay the delivery man. I walk back to our room to find Jiwon fiddling with his fingers and smiling from ear to ear.

(A/n: Happy Holidays! I know, I'm kinda late. Also, are you enjoying the story? Hope you all have a fantastic 2018! xxx)