Marriage with Benefits - COMPLETED

67: Truth Be Told

Alyx's POV

An hour passed and I don't know why but I was standing outside his house.

Wind blew. Maybe it'll rain. Ugh,no it's actually starting to rain.

Mikko's out. Sarado ang buong bahay at nakapatay ang mga ilaw.

I sat at the pavement and wait for him.

I am soaking wet. But I don't care. Kahit na hindi ako sigurado kung bakit ako nandito. Kahit hindi ko alam kung dapat at tamang sabihin ko na ba ang totoong nararamdaman ko. Ewan. Ako din naman kasi tong nahihirapan e. Ako din tong nasasaktan.

Mahal ko sya. Mahal ko sya noon. Mahal ko sya ngayon. At mamahalin ko sya bukas.

Ayoko ng matakot.

Gusto ko ng sumugal.

Bahala na kung ano mang mangyayari.

Bahala na kung san man to makarating.

Bahala na si batman.

I hugged myself as the rain frickles on my skin.

Minutes after his car came in.

And in less than a minute  after he was here standing on my front.

'What are you doing here? Basang-basa ka na.'

I watched him speak. I watched the movement of his face. Of his eyes. Of his lips.

'Baby? Halika sa loob.'

'Mikko sorry--'

'No. No. Please no!!' he pleaded.

Oh shit hindi nya naiintindihan.

I step in to break our distance. And I wrap my arms around his neck.

Basa na rin sya ng ulan.

'Baby?'

'Mikko. Makinig ka muna please.'

He noded nervously.

'I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. Masyado akong nasaktan oo,pero hindi ko naisip na pati ikaw nasaktan. Pati ikaw nahirapan. Sobrang dami mong sinakripisyo. And for that I'm sorry. Tapusin na natin to--'

'Alyx, no. Please! Don't do this--'

I ran my finger at the back of his neck.

'Sabi na kasi na patapusin muna ako.'

He lets out a deep breath.

'Mikko,tapusin na natin tong habulan na to. Napapagod na rin ako e--' he shook his head and he can't hide it with his eyes, he looks so scared. I run my thumb on his cheek. 'Ito? Itong mukha to ang ayoko ng makita. Ayoko ng makita kang nasasaktan ng ganito Mikko. After everything you've done,you deserve more than this--'

'Ikaw lang ang gusto ko Alyx. Ikaw lang! Kahit masaktan ako ng paulit-ulit ayos lang,para sayo. Wag mo kong iiwan ulit please--'

'No,I won't. Kaya nga tatapusin na natin tong kalokohan na to e--'

He reached for my hand and kisses the back of it as he whispers: 'No baby no!! Don't do this. Anong pa gusto mong gawin ko? Mahal na mahal kita. Isa pang chanve please. Kung galit ka saken dahil sa nangyari. Isa pa chanve please? I'll make it right this time,promise!! Just. Please. I love you.'