You were up early, much earlier than everyone else, because of the simple fact that you haven't slept. Your secret was eating at you, really eating at you. Why? Because... You finally got up and in your fuzzy (y/f/a) pants and (y/f/c) tank top, which you had changed into thinking you were going to get sleep, and went down to the dojo to meditate and calm down. You where silent as you crept through the living room, taking note of the cutie, Michaelangelo, and the skipped heart beat along with the blush and butterflies. When you got to the dojo, you knelt in front of the tree, slowly closing you eyes. You left your mind blank... But only for a moment because you crush's face shown behind you eye lids and his laugh was heard in your mind. You were smiling softly... But then frowned. 'I have to do this to him... I have to hurt him... I... I can't...' You thought as small tears formed.
"(Y/n)? Is something the matter?" You jumped a bit and looked at splinter before looking down.
"Sensei... I need to tell you something..." You started softly, swallowing after a moment.
"What is it child?"
"I need to know... Will I still be accepted after I confess?"
"Well, I am not sure. I see no reason why you would not be."
"I just... Its bad..." You said with a slight tremble. "I don't want anyone hurt..."
"I know." He said calmly, having patience with you, sensing that what you are going ng to say was hard.
"I need t start from the beginning I guess..."
"Which is?"
"The truth... About my family..." Splinter looked confused. "My parents were not June and William Darby... They never existed..."
"Then will you tell me who is?"
"They are... (Y/m/n) and..." You kept your head down as you slowly said the other name. "Shredder..." Splinter froze and watched you as you kept your head down, your (h/c) hair covering your face. You where shaking a bit as tears started to slip out.
"I see..."
"I used to be proud of that but now..." Splinter knew the rest without you saying. "And I'm suppose to be here... On an important mission ... On I can not fulfill..."
"Which was?"
"I was told my mission was to come her undercover as an orphan and get as much information as much could against you all... Then kill you and Michaelangelo..." You kept your head down, not able to bear looking up at him. "But I can't do it... And I won't. I would rather die than hurt any of you..." You said truthfully.
"You certainly tried in the beginning." He pointed out and you shook you head.
"No actually... I had not."
"Really?" He sounded unconvinced.
"Yes sensei... I mean s-"
"You don't need to correct yourself child." You looked up a bit and saw a soft smile, and broke down into tears.
"Sensei... The said if I didn't... They would torture all of you... And I would have to watch..." You told him, looking down. "I hate both options so much... I can't bare it..." You whispered. Nothing was said for a while. "I won't even bother to ask if you all will still accept me..." You said quietly.
"Why?"
"Because I know none of you will... I should get my things..."
"But you haven't asked Michaelangelo." You paused and looked up, seeing Mikey next to him. Your eyes watered more and you looked down again.
"I don't have too..."
"Ask me anyways." Mikey told you. You looked up at him with your (y/e/c) eyes meeting his baby blue ones.
"Do you still accept me after what I have confessed?" You asked, knowing he probably heard it all anyways.
"Yes (y/n) I do still accept you." He said with a soft smile. You smiled back sadly as Master Splinter left them be to talk. "I have something I need to confess too." He told you.
"What is it?" You asked him softly.
"(Y/f/l/n) I don't care how wrong we might be told we would be, I wan you to know I love you. I was the moment I laid eyes on you and nothing in the world would make me change how I feel about you." He told you. You smiled and leaned in...
