Previously...
You had told shredder you would kill them all at the end of the week, but you lied. Instead you decided you would run away. Raphael caught you, and you told him your plan. In the morning you where still there and received a note from your captain, and that night you left. Before you left, he gave you another note, telling you to read it after the first one, and you ran out of the lair. you read the notes, fell asleep thinking about them, then woke up, ran back to the lair, and cried over leo's body...
Now...
You sighed softly and swallowed back the tears you as you knelt in front of Sensei, preparing to meditate, but he asked you something first...
"(y/n), can i ask you something?" you nodded. "what are you going to do now?" you looked down."
"i don't know... i can't really leave..." sensei nodded.
"Why don't you meditate on that?" you nodded again. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes... then saw his face. More tears you didn't know you had started to roll down your face. You wished that Leo was here with you to meditate... then you where interrupted, thankfully, by Ralph.
"(Y/n). Leo wrote something for you." He said, anger laced in his voice. You opened your eyes and looked at him. He instantly felt his moment of hate melt away seeing how puffy and red your eyes where and the tears still streaming down your face. He sat with you two, holding the letter in his hand. "Can I meditate with you two after?" Sensei nodded a bit and he handed you the letter. Taking it with shaking hands you looked at it... the little blue hearts...
"The last one he gave me..." you whispered a bit. They looked at you. "The first one told me he loved me and I was happy... the second one he told me he would do this but I was confused, not knowing what he meant at first... now there is this one... I don't know if I can bare to read it..." you felt your whole body shake as you kept your eyes on the note. "I just..."
"Hey, do you want me to read it first?" Ralph asked gently. You shook your head.
"No... I have to read it myself..." you said and swallowed back the tears that where threatening to roll down your tears as you opened it slowly...
Dear (y/n),
I don't know how hard this is going to be on you, my death, but know that no matter what the others may say, this wasn't your fault. Don't let them blame you.
Just so you know, I still think you are beautiful and wonderful. What you do know is up to you. I hope you can find someone that will make you happy and gives you everything. I know I can't give you that...
I still wish I would have kissed you before you left, I want to know what it would have felt like, I wish I would have told you in person... I know if I would have waited I probably still could have told you but... that would have meant forcing you to stay, even if you don't see it as that.
I know we might not get to see each other after death but that's ok. I know you will end up happy and content with whoever you end up with. My only request is that you don't forget me.
With all of my heart and soul
Love,
Leonardo
Those tears you just tried to swallow back fell down your cheeks fast and you couldnt stop them.
"Oh Leo... I can never forget you..." you whispered before you started to sob. This was different the the two small notes he sent you, this was a letter... a letter you intended to write a response to even if he will never get to read it. You felt like you HAD to write it. "Please excuse me for a moment..." you said before getting up and running to get paper and a pen. Donnie looked at you and knew you were going to write back to him...
