My lover, my assassin

Chapter 10

Karma's Pov

I walked into the bedroom with a tray of soup and a jug of water. I looked up to see Nagisa scowling at me from the bed. He was naked, covered in dirt from our earlier scuffle and sporting a bruise on the side of his face from where I had struck him with the hilt of the knife.

"Have you calmed down now?"

He yelled what I could only say was abuse but only muffled sounds came from around the gag in his mouth. When he had come to he had fought me and screamed until I had handcuffed him to the bed and gagged him. It was now night and he had yet to eat anything. The moment he smelled the warm pumpkin soup I heard his stomach gurgle. Normally he would have flushed red but at the moment he had two spots of red from anger.

Placing the tray down I sat on the edge of the bed and he wiggled as far away from me as he could with his hands tied to the frame. I felt a twinge of regret but I was doing this for his safety. If it got out that I hadn't taken care of a witness then he would be killed and I would be punished. I wasn't worried about Sensei wanting me dead, I was his star pupil as he liked to say. He wouldn't kill me but he would put me through enough pain that I would wish I was. I had seen what he did to those that disobeyed him.

I reached over and untied the gag which he spat out, still glaring at me. I then unlocked one of the handcuffs allowing him to sit up and feed himself. He shifted the pillow so it covered his bottom half and began to scoff down the soup, not caring when some spilled down his chin. I couldn't help but watch the liquid slide down his slender neck and unconsciously licked my lips.

When he finished, I put the bowl on the tray and moved closer towards the bluenette. I went to kiss him but he turned his face away.

"Don't."

Ignoring him I grabbed his chin and turned his face towards me, pressing my lips to his. He was unresponsive and when I pulled back his face was expressionless, his eyes cold.

"You liked it this morning."

I nuzzled into his neck, licking off the soup and I felt him shiver but he didn't make a sound and when I looked up he still wore that same dead look. I felt angry and moved away so I wouldn't turn my anger on him.

"Let me go home."

"You can't, I told you no!"

"I need to get my things, to see my friends, let them know I'm okay."

"If you are found out you will be killed."

"Then come and protect me! Please I just need to see them and then I will stay with you. I was going to come back when I left this morning."

I looked up to meet his gaze and wished I hadn't. They were full of pleading as he sat on his knees, staring intently at me. There were no lies in them, he wanted to be by my side.

"It's not safe, I can't risk it."

"I won't let you touch me."

"You think you can stop me?"

I pounced at him, pushing him down on the bed and gripping his free wrist in my arm as I bent down to nibble on his neck and forced my knee between his legs. When I looked up in triumph I was met with his dead eyes. The difference from the blushing eager bluenette from this morning and this dead creature was laughable. I couldn't force him, I didn't want to. I wanted him to want me as much as I needed him. I cursed and stomped for the door, taking the tray with me.

"Please Karma. Just let me say goodbye."

I hesitated at the door and met his gaze again even though I knew I couldn't. The eyes were sparkling, his lips parted as he begged me and a part of me wavered.