My lover, my assassin

Chapter 57

I shuffled back and forth in the cold as I quickly put on my clothes. Lying in bed, blankets only covering the bottom half of his naked body Karma watched me, his golden eyes lingering on the kiss and bit marks that littered my neck and just.

"Why did you agree to do this so early?"

I glanced at him and my eyes caught the red scratches I had left down his back from last night. After seeing him in his suit with a red shirt that matched his hair perfectly and hugged his perfectly sculptured body I had been insatiable. So had he when I told him I had decided to wear a dress. My eyes lingered on his muscles and that chest that had been against my body and he smirked at me, stretching out on the bed like a model.

"Like what you see?"

I flushed and knelt on the edge of the bed to kiss his cheek.

"You know I do."

He grabbed my arm and pulled me onto the bed and lay beside me, resting his head on his hand, elbow on the bed as he stroked my blue locks now spread out on the bed. I closed my eyes as I enjoyed his fingers raking through my hair. I had started wearing it out, tumbling below my shoulders. My mothers threats and words no longer haunted me and I found I liked having longer hair and enjoyed when Karma would run his fingers through it. I shivered when he kissed the shell of my ear.

"You could just come back to bed."

I opened my eyes to see his face close to mine and his golden eyes smouldering as he continued to run my hair through his fingers. I sighed and sat up.

"I cant, I promised I would help Kayano run some training for the new recruits."

"Do you like doing it?"

I shrugged, "I did it with the Asano group. I don't mind it and it helps me work on skills."

"Would you like to do it regularly?"

I looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

"I am only helping because the person that normally does it is out on a job. Why are you asking?"

His eyes were thoughtful as he rubbed circles on my thigh.

"Have you put much through into what you want to do after the wedding?"

"I'm still trying to catch up with everything that has happened this past year. I cant even believe that I will be marrying you in a few days I haven't even thought about the future."

"You wouldn't have to work, I have made enough with my work that money isn't a problem but I know you, know that you would find it hard to sit around and do nothing. I mean," his fingers reached under my sweater to run along my back.

"I don't mind having you beside me for a while, just me and you but could you do nothing  or go back to a normal life? Do you have a dream?"

"Could you?"

He met my gaze and I knew he count. This had been his life, all he knew what to do was fight and kill.

"I am working on something. I have you to think of and protect now."

I opened my mouth to argue but he put his finger on my lips. 

"I know you can look after yourself. What I mean is that I am responsible for your life as well as my own. In the past I would go on a job with only thinking about how to take my target down and get out alive and if I didn't no problem."

I felt cold at his words, at how little he had cherished his own life.

"But now, if I die it would hurt you or worse, you could be targeted again, simply because you are with me, just like with Takaoka. I cant risk you and I cant lock you up, not like I before."