there's this vile part of me
that wants you to lose your mind,
and cry for days.
it makes me want to do things to you
that i would never do.
it makes me want to inflict pain,
it wants me to reign.
there's this heinous part of me
that wants to push you away,
that makes me want to snap
and say, "shut the fuck up"
when you ask me whether i'm okay.
hell is a part of me now; h.k
