i wonder what it feels like
to slowly dissociate yourself
from someone,
you thought you knew.
and how does it feel
to let go,
even though you can feel yourself
heavily deteriorating,
from your fingertips.
i wonder how you feel
every time you try to grasp on to something,
and just watch it fade away,
and burn your heart,
achingly.
so what does it feel like
when you choose to be unhappy
to make someone feel happy,
even though you know they would never be happy
without you.
