Until you are mine

7. Superman

"Yna! Open the door!"

I bit my lower lip - hard when I heard Kuya Yvo's voice. It was late at night that same evening – I was just in my room – shutting everyone else that tried to come near me. I was just thinking, crying and trying so hard to be strong as I could but I'm not strong. I'm not like my brothers or sister – or as I like to call them now – the people I grew up with.

I remember while I was younger – I was always having doubts. I sometimes feel different. I was always wondering about that special bond Kuya Yto has with Ate Yza and Kuya Yvo has with Yllak – they have their own magical bond that I can't seem to uncderstand. Akala ko noon ay dahil lang ito sa ako ang pinakabata but hearing what Helios Demitri had to say – I now understand.

My tears feel even harder when I remember what Yllak told me earlier.

HINDI KITA KAPATID.

Bakit ganoon? Bakit napakadali para sa kanya ang tanggapin ang sinabi ng lalaking iyonm? All my life I had loved them. Akala ko kasi mahal nila ako but then they all lied to me.

Kung totoo man angh sinabi ni Helios Demitri – buong buhay ko ay isa lamang malaking kasinungalingan.

"Yna open the door!

I stared at the ceiling. My tears were still falling. Ang sakit . Bigla na lang akong napabangon nang bumukas ang pinto at mula doon ay pumasok si Kuya Yvo. Puno ng pag-aalala ang mga mata nila pero ako, wala akong maramdamang kahit na ano. I am numb. Tulo lang nang tulo ang luha ko pero wala akong nararamdaman. Alam kong masakit at siguro sa sobrang sakit ay namanhid na ang buong katawan ko.

I am in a dark path. I hated Demitri for bringing me here.

"Yna. "Kuya Yvo called my name. I didn't speak. "Yna, don't tell me you believe what he said? Ginugulo niya lang ang pamilya natin!" He raised his voice. Para bang ginising niya ako. Nasa likod niya si Yllak pero hindi naman siya nagsasalita. Maybe now he's really happy. Baka kaya siya ganoon sa akin ay dahil ayaw niya talaga sa akin bilang kapatid. Now that he knew that I'm not a real Consunji – siguro masayang-masaya siya. Maybe he saw me as an enemy. Isang kaagaw sa mga bagay na gusto niyang magkaroon - karibal – kaya siguro galit nag alit siya sa akin.

"You're our sister!" Kuya Yvo added. Napatingon ako sa kanya. I saw the love he has for me in his eyes. Napapangiti na ako. Madali lang naman akong kalmahin – hangga't alam kong hindi naniniwala si Kuya Yvo o kahit si Ylla pa hindi rin ako manininiwala sa taong iyon.

Baka tama si Kuya Yvo, sinisira niya lang ang pamilya naming. Paanong hindi ako magiging anak ni Nanay? She was always telling how thankful she was because of my existence. Mahal niya ako, nararamdaman ko iyon at mahal din ako ni Tatay Sancho. Wala lang sila ngayon dahil kailangan sila ni Kuya Yto – pero alam ko na wala akong dapat ipag-alala.

"No, she's not!" Yllak screamed. "She's not our sister, Yvo!"

Bumagsak na naman ang confidence ko. I looked at Yllak. Seryoso siya. Nakatiim ang mga bagang niya pati na rin ang mga palad niya. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang bigla na lang siyang sapakin ni Kuya Yvo.

"Naririnig mo ba ang mga sinasabi mo?! Yna is our sister!"

I stared at the two. Kuya Yvo seemed to be really mad at Kuya Yllak. Nagsukatan sila ng tingin – I on the other hand stood up and exited the room. I don't care about anything anymore. Ang nakiisip ko lang nang mga sandaling iyon ay ang makaalis. I wanna be alone. I wanna find the missing pieces of myself. I can't believe I got ruined and broken all in just one night and it was all because of that stranger.