Phan Oneshots

Not In That Way

Prompt: Phil loves Dan. But he's scared to tell him because of he knows he won't feel the same. Based on Not In That Way by Sam Smith.

"I'd never ask you, because deep down I'm certain I'd know what you'd say. You'd say I'm sorry, believe me, I love you.. but not in that way."

Phil cuddled lower into his duvet, adjusting the laptop on his lap. It seemed like there was a dark cloud hovering over him that Dan couldn't quite put his finger on and that scared him. He hoped maybe if he went out and got some pancakes he could at least bring Phil from the bed he'd been in for nearly a week. Truth was, Phil was struggling. He was watching videos of the happy couples on Youtube, like Joe and Caspar, Frank and Eva, and Shane and Ryland. But with every video, the tears welled up in his eyes. All he wanted was to be that way with Dan. But he can't ask Dan because Phil knows what the reaction would be. "I..I love you..but not like that." And Phil couldn't take that kind of rejection. Not from Dan. He could take it from anyone else, just..just not Dan.

Phil decided he was being boring, so he decided to step out his room. Dan was sliding on his shoes. "He lives!" He laughed, standing. Phil cracked the tiniest smile, making himself not so obvious. "Are you going somewhere?" He asled quietly, biting his lip. "I'm going to get you a surprise. I'm hoping it'll cheer you up." Dan chirped, pecking Phil swiftly on the forehead on the way to the door. Even though it was a friendly gesture, Phil's heart fell out of his chest. "Bye." Phil murmured at the closing door. He slumped down on the couch, pulling his knees to his chest, and letting out tears that have been in his eyes for a week.

"I'm back!" Dan closed the door gently behind him. The house was eerily quiet and dark, except for the light coming from the bathroom. Dan tiptoed toward it, to see Phil wiping his face. "Are you alright?" Dan asked softly, making Phil jump slightly. "Oh, yeah. You know those try not to cry challenges. They get me everytime." He made himself chuckle. Dan caught Phil's arm as he rushed out the door. "Are you sure?" He asked again, wanting reassurance. He knows something is up, but still can't figure it out. "Well, Dan, I-" Phil breathes before changing his mind. "I'm alright, Dan. I promise." Phil smiles. Dan caught on but follows Phil to the lounge for Pancakes.

Maybe tomorrow.

A/N hEY GUYS IT'S BEEN AWHILE DID YA MISS MEEEE

HOPE I HURT YOUR FEELS

BYE