Phan Oneshots

Not In That Way (part two)

Prompt: Phil loves Dan. But he's scared to tell him because of he knows he won't feel the same. Based on Not In That Way by Sam Smith.

Phil tossed in his bed, overthinking. The way he saw it, he had two options: spill open his heart, and risk losing Dan. Or he can continue to make himself miserable and lose Dan to someone else.

What a lose lose situation.

Sitting up, Phil grabbed his glasses off the nightstand next to him and threw the duvet off of him. It was late but Phil knew Dan; he'd still be up. He was a nightowl. Phil wondered into the kitchen at first, making himself coffee so he wouldn't seem suspicious. Then, he walked into were Dan was, and watched him edit a Daniel Howell video.

"Oh my god, Phil. I almost shit myself, I didn't even realize you were there." Dan said, turning around. "Sorry." Phil chuckled softly. "I was just wondering if I.." Come on, Phil. You can do it. You can do it. "If we could talk?" Phil smiled. "Of course. We can watch Anime in the lounge. There's this new one that someone recommended that I've been dying to watch." Dan said, taking his headphones off and following Phil into the lounge.

Once they were comfortable, and half an episode in, Phil decided to get the ball rolling. "So, uh, about what I wanted to talk about.." Phil scratched the back of his neck. Come on, Phil. Just spit it out. "Okay. I'm going to brave and just say this.." Phil adjusted his self and took a deep breath. "I've had these feelings about you for a long time, and I just.. I've been so scared to tell you because of how you'd react. I need you and I'm scared if I tell you how I really feel you'll be weirded out or it'll change our friendship. But I guess you have to take chances, right? So hear goes. I love you, Dan. And I'm absolutely terrified." By now, Phil was crying, and he was proud of himself.

Dan had the widest eyes. "Phil, I don't-" He didn't even hear the rest and his world was crashing down. He just assumed the worst. "You don't feel the same, right? I should've known, taking such a big risk, I'm so stupid, I-I-" Phil was throwing himself into a panic attack. "No, no, no, Phil!" Dan knew exactly what to do, running a hand through his hair.

"Listen to me." Dan soothed. "I was going to say, before I was so rudely interrupted.." Dan joked before continuing seriously, "that I don't know what to say. It's a complete honor to be loved by you, Phillip Michael Lester. I love you too."

Phil looked up, choking on his tears.

Maybe it was in that way.

A/N so part two was requested, which I was hoping would happen. I hope you enjoy! ❤️